Lisa's diaries

2AM FEVER ^-^

2011-05-21T13:41:00.001+08:00

To Her

Can't Say I love her

You wouldn't answer my calls

寂寞不痛

2011-04-09T11:56:00.001+08:00

你皮衣忘了帶走
那是我們旅行的時候
淋著大雪手暖手去買的

什麼都總會舊的
多麼苦澀無奈的心得
卻沒選擇

體諒地相信你只是愛累了
絕不是有別的人替代我了
連自己都想問我為什麼
只抱抱你就放手像好好的
其實心瓦解斑駁

寂寞不痛痛在念舊
越小的事越多的感受
時間像笨小偷把幸福打破
留下了碎片讓人難過

寂寞不痛痛在做夢
幻想當你自由膩了以後
會來激動吻我用愛悔過
做醒不來的夢

什麼都總會舊的
多麼苦澀無奈的心得
卻沒選擇
轉載來自 ※Mojim.com　魔鏡歌詞網

體諒地相信你只是愛累了
絕不是有別的人替代我了
連自己都想問我為什麼
只抱抱你就放手像好好的
其實心瓦解斑駁

寂寞不痛痛在念舊
越小的事越多的感受
時間像笨小偷把幸福打破
留下了碎片讓人難過

寂寞不痛痛在做夢
幻想當你自由膩了以後
會來激動吻我用愛悔過
做醒不來的夢

寂寞不痛痛在念舊
越小的事越多的感受
時間像笨小偷把幸福打破
留下了碎片讓人難過

寂寞不痛痛在做夢
幻想當你自由膩了以後
會來激動吻我用愛悔過
做醒不來的夢

What's wrong with me?

2011-03-23T12:45:00.000+08:00

Its been so long since i blogged, ya way long... Spent the day at work and night at study, so no time to blog lol..

Kepp going on MC these couple of years since poly days till now.. Whats wrong with me?

Having Chest pain this few days, told my family doc.. She looked worried.. Havent tell my family.. No need to worry them anyway.. Anyway, lots of phelgm in my lungs, this may be the reason

Had my blood test in Jan this year, all turn out fine.. so shouldnt be a problem i think..

Gotta take note of my health..

Looking out for my UNI applications.. had made up my mind to sign up for 3..

PSB, SIT and MDIS??

Wait till next year then decide ba...

Had some problems with my phone this morning, sent my previous smses to people.. worse still to my boss.. now have to wait till tmr to tell my boss about it.. Had apologised to her le.. See what will happen tmr.

This is time for all the blesses

I'm working fine really..

2011-02-27T11:49:00.000+08:00

Honestly, I am really fine.. Have ended my NTU job for I dont think i am suitable and.. But now, i can focus on my studies for my exams tomorrow. All my current situations can be seen in my twitter and facebook and not here.. Anyway, not many blog now right... ??

Eat food to destress myself, go to ice-cream, a way to destress myself.. DESSERTS are best remedies for STRESSED.. aint they haha..

Starting my new job after my exam, at Raffles Place, back to the town area, have more varieties of food to eat le hehe and no need to wake up so early, i deprived for sleep, my 6 hours sleep.. now i sleeping lesser than 6 hours =.=

Heard that my modules next year would be more care-free, not many assignments to do.. must JIAYOU and worked hard.. FYP next year, most probably doing GI project, got lots to read during the holidays.. So dont waste it!!

GOOD NEWS: I can take SIT Food and Human Nutrition degree with my diploma in Biotechnology.. A great news to hear, cause many dont accept my diploma in the food industry :( Glad to hear this actually :)

Going to help out for Milo triathlon next sat, set off at 4am =.= and end at 2.30pm.. Enjoying my life now, living to the fullest. Slowly will sign up for Kumon to start giving tuitions and attend some lessons that i wanted to, Korean, French, Japanese, GP, aerobics, YOGA etc. haha

Lots of things to do.. To do so, Stay healthy LISA!! Work harder LISA!! hehe :p

Mentalally & physically (=.=)

2011-02-10T13:25:00.000+08:00

Had not blogged for a long time..

Now ended my HPB job, currently at NTU.

Leaving soon to check my intestines

Problem now: Mentally discomfort to cause intestinal pain OR

Intestinal discomfort that cause mental nervousness..

They coincide, thats what i can say..

after all the checks and assurred that i am ok.. Will go and start my path again.. Food tech degree and Food tech job.. Here i go..

LISA FIGHTING!! (^-^)

Happy Me by Adam's couple

2011-01-08T07:53:00.002+08:00

Rmb the Christmas special of Adam's couple?

Read up that they are show-casting their last episode on 15 Jan :(

Love the song that JK dedicated to GI.. Happy Me, (^^) Not sure who sang the original haha

Anyway, Enjoy =]

Happy Me [Eng Sub] by Adam's couple

Happy Me [Huh Gak's ft John Park version]

As time goes by by T(Tasha)[p.s. same song ^^]

Notice how one song can be sang in diff versions haha :D

Enjoy =]

Closed all doors and Reflect

2011-01-07T12:49:00.001+08:00

This will be a busy term for me, the last term of the semester, where all the quizzes and reports and exams started to 'pop' by. What's more.. clashed with all the holidays..

Initially, my lecturer told us that we may have a quiz on CNY eve, i'm like =.=.. Great its cancelled and we having the quiz earlier instead.. All the deadlines coming, for Packaging, SCM and Biochem and Nutritionetc.

I'm starting a new term with packaging report submission, and sermens for sending multiple emails, should have just send the final one [p.s. my 20% worth lesson learnt].. And telling my SCM lecturer that we split with the GAY couple.. Good news and bad news to accept for this week.

Coming week will be my biochem quiz, just test on carbohydrates cycle but i already 'GG' le, imagine fats and proteins coming up.. Haiz

And lots of make-up coming up, this lesson cancelled, that lesson cancelled, make up on monday and friday.. To me, quite ok la with the make-up lessons, just gotta spend more time for revision. And weekends will be spent for family stuffs, basically new year stuffs la.. And revision for quizzes and reports. Now a great time to test my Time Management skills.

Had been eating breads and soya milk and banana for lunch recently, firstly can save money, secondly, can use lunch time to do school work, thirdly, no appeptite and lastly, can lose weight too haha..

Contract ending soon, still thinking if i should extend..Cause Feb to Mar- exam period.. Although only 2 papers but very taxing.. so have a thought of focusing my studies.. But i have to work la, otherwise i'll be like lazing around at home. Or i quit and find another one??

People say i cant take stress, and come to think of it, i really cant haha.. Study is easy itself, Work is fun itself.. but both together, i cant really manage.. Cause time is not in my own hands now, gotta spend the day for my work and night for study, what's left? (LOL)...

Done watching all the shows i wanna watch (those HK dramas), and WGM's adam couple ending soon, On 15 Jan.. After that , nothing to watch liao.. Also good, i can focus my studies.. keke =D

After those deadlines and exams, time to think on my FYP project, and FYP proposal to be done.. Busy 1st trimester of 2011.. Not only that, my GP paper to consider, still thinking if i should take.. Gotta be a busy 2011.. And thinking if i should get a perm job, if i cant really manage well with a temp job already, then forget about it ba.. haha =D

To do well, firstly, my health.. Eat healthy and excercise.. Sleep well.. And With tryptophan, i think i can sleep better now.. =]

Done all the considerations, dont think so much for now, JIAYOU ba.. LISA FIGHTING!! (^^)

I'm done for..

2011-01-06T09:19:00.000+08:00

Happy 2011..

Really do hope it wil be a better year this time..

Really stressed over..?? Maybe scoring a better GPA or something, and time to find a perm job..

On MC ystd.. spend my mc to re-do my report.. cause its wrong in the 1st place.. But realised therafter he didnt print it.. So, like effort went to waste. But anyway, not sure if i'm right or wrong, as nt very sure what i am doing initially.. Not really good at this module, packaging.. pretty confusing..

Secondly, worried of leaving a bad impression, but anyway, i doubt he know me la.. So, i like grumble during lessons for nothing.. Sorry girls, for listening grumbling.. gotta learn my lesson.. Its nt a good thing to send repeated emails, should check carefully before sending.. Let it be a 20% worth lesson for this module.

Things went smoothly for other modules, as i think 'he' dont wanna be a bad guy.. But he understand our plight. So yeah, both parties are not in a disadvantage.

So, now chiong for it.. My reports and quizzes..

Actually no job in Feb also good, can focus my exams and searched in Feb ba.. Dont think too much..

Set my priorities right!! (^-^)

Straight no Chaser (>.<)

2010-12-03T23:26:00.001+08:00

Love Acapella =)
First time listening to them- their 12 Days of Christmas.. others subsequently :)

12 Days of Christmas

Stand by Me

I'm Yours

The Lion Sleeps Tonight

Love them.. Love Acapella. Enjoy =D

MAMA awards (^^)

2010-11-30T23:07:00.002+08:00

Forget one impt thing, watch MAMA awards.. pretty nice performance.. i could say..

MNET 2008: DBSK

MNET 2010: 2PM

Enjoy >.<

Weird?

2010-11-29T11:05:00.000+08:00

Not sure why but feel like blogging today..

Pretty happening weeks i think, working @ HPB doing data entry stuffs.. Still waiting for HSA to call, so feel like doing lab work.. Hope i'm lucky enough =]

Did my blood test on sat, Cant find my vein, my vein too thin.. So i had 2 holes and 1 blue-black patch on my hand. Maybe have to shed some weight and exercise more..

Nothing went well these few days, Loud and disturbing.. Everyone seems to be in a bad mood, including me..

My tummy seems to give me problems when the weather starts to change, or because festive season coming, lots of junk foods came along the way.. Will take note of my diet.. Wanna get well.. Cant remove that problem, but can put those symptoms to the minimum.. why not?

Watch MAMA yesterday, pretty confused, cause not all had came.. and the adverts disrupt the whole item.. LOL

Had diarrhea today, maybe of all the junk food i had yesterday night.

Get over it and a new day arrives...

fine & ok

2010-11-17T14:17:00.000+08:00

I am doing fine, with my job and studies.. Just feeling a little sick recently.. Down with flu. Working at HPB doing work, fun experience actually, but pretty bored, otherwise ok la. Now, I really know what are statistics.. Heard some of the other temps are ending their contracts this month, so means i got more things to do :( But no worries ba, i can hang on ba..

Desktop went hay-wired, means no more 'funshion', means no more WGM2.. Anyway, WGM will be halted for 2 months due to Asian Games... So sad. :(

Still thinking if i should take a honours degree in mathematics and economics from UOL at SIM, well not changing field again... Just more focus on the field i'm going.. Not quiting my AFT, no worries.. haha. Will do better instead. Will focus on sensory evaluation and biostatistics if i can.. that's what i want, and i will aim towards it.. But studying @ SIM is expensive, about 25K.. Ex right? haha

Will focus more about it .. Wish me luck.. Break a leg haha

Delighted

2010-10-28T15:08:00.000+08:00

Delighted that i can start working next week...
Delighted that i am using what i learn in this job...
Delighted that i am using statistics for this job...

Delighted that there's a reply from a student care...
Delighted that they don't mind waiting for me to end my temp job
Delighted that they don't mind letting me try for this position

NOW...

Confident in teaching math and science
But they are testing on my comprehensive skills in english
p.s. so not confident in that
Oh well, will try my best...

Hope everything goes well tmr.. =]

Uncertainty

2010-10-19T17:40:00.000+08:00

Had 2 interviews yesterday, how i fare myself? Passe?! I not even sure myself. Cant even speak well, what to do? I'm like a nun living in the world of void LOL Anyway, i dont talk much.. i cant comment much..

Some uncertaintys come to my head..

1.
How's my interviews be like? Will i get a job?? Should i really get a
Food tech job.. Thought of getting one, but no reply lei (-_-)

2.
Reoccurence of IBS. Anyway, i know it will keep coming back.. Got to control my diet and Stress tolerance.. Anyway its not cancer.. Face it positively ba (^-^)

Anyway.. School starts today.. Muahahaha.. Will be a good Sem ahead. SCORE well Lisa!! Otherwise...

found it!!

2010-10-12T10:04:00.003+08:00

thought that only Pixar and Disney are the only cartoons watched?? And their songs are the only one known? Not really..haha we unknowingly also watched cartoons produced by Jetlag productions.. Their songs are great too. Watched those cartoons in the 90s. i think they are produced in the 90s, cause didnt see much of their discs around anymore..

Enjoy the songs =]

More Pixar Shorts

2010-10-01T18:05:00.000+08:00

Pixar Short films have been featured subsequently before Pixar movies after the Bug's Life movie. Have been watching a collection of Disney's Pixar Short films on TV, there are some that i like, due to copyright, only managed to find a few. These following are ones of the many that i like haha (Including Boundin', of course) (>.<)Love digital media, but dont have the courage to learn them LOL. So, very fond of cartoons. These shorts were the aspirations of artists and some do inspired some of our thinking. Of course, some were for laugh haha. I believe you will love them. Click here to see the list of Pixar shorts

First clip: PRESTO [link]

Second clip: Partly Cloudy [link]

Taken from Links: Pixar shorts | MetaTube

Journey

2010-09-29T10:16:00.002+08:00

Went to School yesterday to pass Kelly the shoes, went to Library to get my books and stuck there looking for jobs, called AVA and what you know, play FB. People say I'm hardworking, honestly not really, because i have nothing to do thats why?! haha

Then had a crazy idea in my mind, shall I take a bus home? And I did. I have a direct bus home, Bus 14 sadly, a very long journey. Took 1 hour to City hall and another hour back to my home. If you seldom leave the house, gradually you wont wanna go out. So, to prevent that "Problem" from coming back, i took long journeys as and when to courage myself. As this "problem" haunted me for like all my Poly years, i dont want it back.

Anyway, I came across one street while taking the bus, Kay Poh Rd at around River Valley Rd, pretty funny right, and its just after Shanghai Rd haha. Wanna check out where Bras Basah station leads to, then i realise its just opposite NTUC trade income . Singapore have lots of strange names for streets, i came across numbers : Satu Rd and the numbers go on [somewhere around Old Airport Rd]; came across fruits: Rambutan Rd , Chiku Rd [somewhere in Kembagan]. Will look out for more haha

Love Disney, watched short Pixar films yesterday, came across one that i like:
Boundin' Sheep

Message from this movie;

And as the funny jackalope says:

Now sometimes you’re up and sometimes you’re down,
When you find that you’re down well just look around:
You still got a body, good legs and fine feet,
Get your head in the right place and hey, you’re complete!

Taken from links: Metatube | Phargon.net

Most viewers agreed, this is indeed one great message to learn :D

Rain

2010-09-27T16:34:00.000+08:00

Found my relationship with rain. Was raining heavily on my bdae, rain heavily when i planned for outings, rained heavily when i have decided to step out of the house.

I really love the rain, if u know me well, u know i will say this. "We should have a good sleep in this weather." or "We should have steamboat in this weather" haha

Oh ya, went to Marina Barrage on Sat despite the heavy rain, had fun, although we bought a big "Flying Squirrel" kite, and it finally flew. Had fun playing with "bubbles". Love bubbles, planning for our next outing.. Cant wait!! K-time haha

Thinking if i should call the company if I am chosen for the job. And more to bother after that.

Believe

2010-09-16T22:11:00.005+08:00

Had my last paper yesteraday, its pretty cool that i met my DBT lab tech- Miss Zhang and Ms Ye.. Long time didnt see them le, wonder how are they? As usual? haha :D Went to clubhouse, settled on what to do tmr.. LOL right haha :D

Came across a video on Star King, then realise from news that Charice went to Star King.. and thats how she starts her star route. She believes in herself and she did it.

But anyway, enjoy this video, " Charice First time in Korea on Star King "

加油

2010-09-13T11:51:00.000+08:00

Today is not friday the 13th, but today is a packed day for me. Me, having Monday Blues, will be a super exciting one haha

I somehow telling my world (my family and friends) that i'm having an ineterview on my exam day. Last minute packing of my documents, they want Original documents somemore. My view is to find to find bigger folders, as some certs are larger than A4 cause they are laminated LOL.

Realise how stupid in my sec school days, misplaced stuffs and keep all the unnecessary stuffs- I forget my SingPass stuff. As the saying goes, you wont realise how important it is till you need it, so true right? LOL x2.

So have to go CPF building today to reset the password, why not online? Problem is i dont even remember if I have activated it.. LOL x3 So went to Tanjong Pagar early, then i saw my uncle. LOL x4. Then chitty-chat a little while, set off to CPF building, end in 5 mins LOL x5

So no where to go, went for my interview. I was super early, my interview at 1030 but i reach at 1000. Cant find the place, thought i can take the lift, ended up using the stairs. LOL x6 They were like saying, u are so early, way too early for there's an interview at 1010. Lucky he's not here yet.

I was like a drunken chicken, all wet. Hello, its freaking hot this morning. Do hope it rains somehow, after 2 k? haha

There were 5 interviewing me, 3 are the managers that i will be meeting for 3 applicants was given to me. They laughed during the interview, not sure its a good one or..? Anyway I tried my best, no regrets le. But one of their requirement is to get a driving license. Maybe have to get it fast, ask Benji this friday.. I think.. Wonder when's the next interview? I so want to work. But the interviewers know the intentions of Diploma holders, so they know i took night studys. Can le ba haha

All have to move on, just wanna blurt everything out. Now focus on my exam for FPD. Will have to do well for this. For myself. My target- Massey Uni..

LISA FIGHTING!! (^-^)

Goodbye Melody Rose

2010-09-10T11:45:00.000+08:00

我們的城市吹著屬於空調的疲累　怪不得你會點起火來希望一直沉睡
就連薔薇　都會變灰　我想問你是誰
千般不對　萬念俱灰　為何一去不回

GOODBYE MELODY ROSE　我也許不能體會　你的憔悴
GOODBYE MELODY ROSE　我的薔薇　我會陪你等到雨水
多留一會　給命運一個機會
就算不相信完美　請相信總會有人為了你　掉眼淚

我們的少年哪個不懂哀愁的滋味　怪不得你會垂起頭來不怕支離破碎
就連薔薇　都會變灰　我想問你幾歲
千般不對　萬念俱灰　為何一去不回

GOODBYE MELODY ROSE　我也許不能體會　你的憔悴
GOODBYE MELODY ROSE　我的薔薇　我會陪你等到雨水
多留一會　給命運一個機會
就算不相信完美　請相信總會有人為了你　掉眼淚

你會否後悔　我也會慚愧　遍地薔薇　沒有璨爛已經枯萎
我來不及在道別時給你安慰　只好在離開後說再會

GOODBYE MELODY ROSE　我也許不能體會　你的憔悴
GOODBYE MELODY ROSE　我的薔薇　我會陪你等到雨水
多留一會　給命運一個機會
就算不相信完美　請相信總會有人為了你　掉眼淚

lyrics from Chinese music blog

爱在哪里

2010-09-07T09:08:00.000+08:00

Where is Love?

在哪里她到底在哪里
终于知道我给的太少我的宝贝在哪里
喔~好可惜像是场梦而已
醒来以后发现它却走了不会电不回信

告诉我爱在哪里
找过高找过低
爱在哪里一直(不停)寻寻觅觅
爱在哪里如果看到她
(说我还) 说我还在这里

告诉我爱在哪里
找过东找过西
爱在哪里仍然无声无息
爱在哪里喔~我好想念
她能来(快点回) 来因为爱在哪里

Lyrics from mojim

二十二

2010-09-05T08:49:00.000+08:00

送给自己的歌 haha (^-^):

春天是它最爱的季节
当微风随意吹乱他的头发
他并不在一身边世界的嘈杂
只想着自己生命中的变化
还有十五分钟才午休
从早到晚没有想像中那么好过
安定的日子不一定就是幸福
忘不掉他在心里做过的梦
他今年农历三月六号刚满二十二
刚甩开课本要离开家看看这世界
却发现许多烦恼要面对
oh yeah
他常会想望能回到那年他一十二
只需要好好上学生活单纯没忧愁
他就像一朵蓓蕾满怀希望
秋天是忽然间就来临
青春虽然有本钱可以洒脱
一场恋爱二十二个月就结束
才知道有些感情不值得赌
九月天气还是有点热
他想公车再不来就走一走路
他开始明白等待未必有结果
一个人也能走上梦的旅途
他今年农历三月六号刚满二十二
刚甩开课本要离开家看看这世界
却发现许多烦恼要面对
oh yeah
他常会想望能回到那年他一十二
只需要好好上学生活单纯没忧愁
他一直满怀希望
人生偶尔会走上一条陌路
像是没有指标的地图
别让它们说你该知足
只有你知道什么是你的幸福
他常会想望能回到那年他一十二
只需要好好上学生活单纯没忧愁
他笑着想过未来
oh 它应该得到幸福
如此的简单的梦
有没有实现

lyrics from justsomelyrics

如果这就是爱情

2010-09-04T12:49:00.008+08:00

If this is love:

你做了选择对的错的
我只能承认心是痛的
怀疑你舍得我被伤的那么深
就放声哭了何必再强忍
我没有选择我不再完整
原来最后的吻如此冰冷
你只能默认我要被割舍
眼看着你走了
如果这不是结局如果我还爱你
如果我愿相信你就是唯一
如果你听到这里如果你依然放弃
那这就是爱情我难以抗拒
如果这就是爱情本来就不公平
你不需要讲理我可以离去
如果我成全了你如果我能祝福你
那不是我看清是我证明我爱你
灰色的天空无法猜透
多余的眼泪无法挽留
什么都牵动感觉真的好脆弱
被呵护的人原来不是我
我不要你走我不想放手
却又不能够奢求同情的温柔
你可以自由我愿意承受
把昨天留给我
如果这不是结局如果我还爱你
如果我愿相信你就是唯一
如果你听到这里如果你依然放弃
那这就是爱情我难以抗拒
如果这就是爱情本来就不公平
你不需要讲理我可以离去
如果我成全了你如果我能祝福你
那不是我看清是我证明我爱你

lyrics from baidu

Study study (>.<)

2010-09-03T10:59:00.000+08:00

I think after all the rantings i had made me feel better, as i have let it out. After reading that post again, made me feel how childish i am. But when u are mad, not in the right mind, i think this would happen.

Finally, YAY completed that stupid 25% worth FM&PM report and ppt, had my ppt yesterday, end super late yesterday. But felt a relief inside. Now can really concentrate and study hard haha >.< AFT peers including the seniors was telling me that i speak like one pro, voice loud and clear. But they didnt know that I'll be like that when i'm nervous. Happy, but will take what i have to say, got have mixed up some parts, hope it dont affect the whole team. JIAYOU!!

Checked my mail, the interview @ AVA is confirmed. Maybe check out the place in the weekends, and really got to prepare a lot, as what they expected. For the reason, they send me lots of things as a hint to prepare.

Now I know what i'm doing, will work hard for it. FM&PM paper first, got to study study.. U too, to everyone.. Great mugging!! ^-^

Going Just Acia today for dinner, remember to make reservations haha =D

rant

2010-09-01T08:57:00.001+08:00

Wonder how i am feeling this few days, shag ba? Why? Because of some presentation, not mad just shag. Unsure what to do, LOL At least the effort was appreciated.

You ask why am i biased towards her, for the reason that when any problems occurred, she will not think twice and point her fingers at me. You stated that I am sensitive, but i dont think i am at times for it happens for many times.

She thought i was super free, she never really care when i am having exams or whatsoever.. she just do everything she wishes. She thought i dont know how to choose and she plans everything for me. She thought this and that. All her mind is that I'm the culprit.

If you say why you can be mad, but why cant i? I can tell you, once you show your temper once, you will be labeled as an idiot. No point showing your temper. Now point to note, I think I'm the one that cant throw my temper. thats why i keep everything to myself, you ask me what happened, and cut my conversation before i completed, and i am mad for just a small matter or i'm too sensitive. After all this reasoning, I felt like an idiot. Its like i'm very free, nothing to do but to do this.

You dont understand me at all, i just know i just do my part of not letting you lose face. Once I get my job, earn my own income, get my degree, i think i will work overseas, study overseas and not coming back. Will not use your money. Anyway, you dont wish to see me..

I grant your wish...

p.s. there's many yous and shes in this.. guess who are they lol..

Finally

2010-08-24T12:24:00.002+08:00

Finally found it!! Super happy.. You might be thinking, found what? A song that i have been finding. Very irritated & frustrated to listen to a song you like on TV and you dont what's the song title..

Not exaggerating , but I do take a long time finding this.. More than 10 years le ba. If you watch the HK TVB version of Journey to the West, you will hear this often. I heard this on the radio station too, many times.. Where? The radio station i always recommend if people ask, Xfm 96.3, music interlude. But its not music interlude every time, check its schedule.

I think many will know the song, and heard the song too. Maybe a little at this, pretty embarrass about that.. But those that have never heard this, can listen to it. Listen to Yanni & Kitaro . Now let's listen from S.E.N.S. To note more about S.E.N.S, click here

this is the song i am talking about:
Palace Memories by S.E.N.S

Enjoy & tell me your views ^-^

Unforgetable

2010-08-19T17:11:00.000+08:00

Have been helping out at home this few weeks while studying for my exams.. My Queenie hurt her back, so i was put in charge of cooking for this week.. Hope she gets well soon, glad she's getting better now. And one great thing i have done, i can cook LOL

I cooked pretty good food too, i guess. I cooked Bibimbap on tues but without chili paste, used Teriyaki sauce instead. Glad they find it ok, cause i dont think its very good myself. Cooked Teriyaki chicken yesterday, heard from them stated not bad.. Happy myself too, cause i made some changes to it.

What's so special about today? Finally got the reply of the Marketing plan , gotta start working on it already, deadline next Friday =.= And no gas at home in the afternoon, so no need to cook today haha ^-^

What's worse today? Today's my turn to accompany Queenie to fetch Gracie home, took a bus back, and suddenly a Glue-sniffer siting beside me, i was like crying for help. I've been taking a bus for so long in my life, I've not have such encounter, even my mum dont. This our first and wanted it to be the last too.

Thereafter, we were like thinking.. Aint Glue-sniffing against the law?.. Honestly if you were near him, u can strong that toxic glue otherwise i think can avoid ba.. Its pretty obvious thou to some passengers too. He placed the glue in the red-bull bottle that no one know, but from his behavior, u will know he is sniffing.. Dont think the bus-driver dare to get him the bus, for he is holding a stick. Worried he injured someone.

Aint this day unforgettable?

Fears or Worries??

2010-08-11T20:55:00.003+08:00

Am I fearing for something or just worrying??

Honestly, i dont know, just having goosebumps and a cold grasp just all over me.. I think maybe no replies from people's smses and employers' calls made me feel like I was out of this world.. Like I was disconnected from this world.

I wanna work, sent lots of resumes, but no reply LOL what to do? Cry? So not my style, maybe look out for more jobs, and I believe one will want me. If no jobs now seriously, maybe focus on my studies. A 100% focus, and try for new jobs next year. Otherwise, what's else can i do?

Not fearing i believe, more to worried. Worried about this and that, just piling up and never ends. I think everyone are so, ME am 1 in the list.. Q-ing up to get my ~~name~~ strike out of the list. I wanna so, i wanna my worries gone.

Maybe I'm too free, to think a lot. BACK to the days i have before i start working. Dont wanna let now became history, dont wanna its ending become another beginning. It should just stay as it is.. Sort out my thoughts and carry on..

Everyone's like that, aint it? Study hard, treasure everyday before my day just gone like that.

These are not labeled as fears but worries..

I dont care what others stated, let them do what they want, let they speak what they wanna say from the bottom of their hearts. I lived with my conscience, a thought that pass my day with. I have a torch with me always, a light that lead me to the way i want, to the light of belief i see, feel and believe. ^-^

Happy or Sad??

2010-08-08T14:47:00.001+08:00

Pretty happy that I'm not working, so i can figure out what i want, and really should shed some weight. But dont think it will work that well, honestly.. LOL

Went lots of places during this break, have not went all yet, but intending too.. soon haha

Went airport on friday with my family, nice place, honestly a cool place to sleep. If i am allowed too, i will sleep LOL Before going airport, went my cousin school, very nice.. the old England design kind of houses for a school.. Pretty!

Then went Parkway Parade yesterday, went Isetan yesterday, why? ISETAN SALE !! haha And i manage to control myself from eating ice-cream. SCOOPZ de, who can resist? If u see the queue, u will know how good it is..

Had a bad night after my last lesson on thurs, end pretty late around 10, so take a cab home. Waited so long for one, then i realise i was on a pirate ship. this taxi driver was acting ignorant through out the whole trip.. then after that stated he will charge us cheaper, for he dont know there's a jam.. but many SIGNS showing it, aint it obvious?? LOL

So, i have learnt something after that, will learn the directions better. Anyway, i always take bus and MRT, how would i know how the car routes are..

Was pretty sian after that, cause felt cheated by the driver. And i'm not the only one, my mum was cheated by a taxi driver also that day.. Thursday so not my day..

Exam Schedule

2010-08-08T14:27:00.002+08:00

Here's my exam schedule.
Venue and seat number will only be known later.. =.=


Exam Schedule

The timing is like 'LATE' 7 to 9.10 PM.. Super late la.. will have to get used to the timing.. Glad that i only have 3 exams but ironically i only have 3 modules per sem, and all are examinable. So, pretty LOL right haha =)

I have a month to study.. GAMBATTE!! ^-^

Inception

2010-08-05T09:19:00.015+08:00

Finally my turn!! Watched Inception yesterday at GV max . Supposedly, to have wider screen but to me i dont see the diff.. But it seems wider.. Wider Screen.. LOL Besides watching Harry Potter & Narnia , i think Inception is another longest movie i watch in Cinemas haha

So what's the ending? Is he still in a dream or reality?

So must watch the movie. If havent watch it, DO go watch..

Trailer:

my view of the movie:
To me, he's still dreaming.. as there is no dialogue at the ending and the top is still spinning. To some, some say are real.. Why? Cause the top seems to topple soon towards the end but then it went BLACK and THE END after..

P.S. Before publishing this post, i have tried to add the Read more icon.. Tried many times, about several hours before i realise its the new function of blogger -> Blogger in draft, that have this add-ins. The adds in seem fun, find some time to play with it soon =D

Dukw tour

2010-07-31T22:00:00.005+08:00

Set off to Flyer at 10 in the morning the we went to board Dukw tour. Was fun but no WHOOSH!! feel when we went to the river cause low tide >.< Been fun as not only Dukw tour but also NDP preview.. More fun haha

Then went Yakult rainforest at Flyers . Get one capsule of fish food and fed the fishes.. Pretty fun haha

Then took cab back to city hall for lunch, we went Just Acia for lunch.. My treat.. Was LOL at first but slowly find it ok, anyway have not really treat my mum food before. haha =D Glad she like it haha =D

Then went home, thought Gracie how to say 'Bedok', pretty proud of it haha

More fun and events coming up for me.. Wanna get a new job, waiting for replies. Let me finish my assignment first haha =D

Took photos:

Last day =D

2010-07-30T22:13:00.002+08:00

Today's my Last day.. I think my Sup will be very happy ba. HAHA They dont seem to like me haha, anyway I dont really care much la. Cause I dont think I do anything wrong ba.. I guess.. Wanna thank them actually, I learn a lot of things, certain things that you wont learn in school..

Met up with XY and Lilian for dinner on wed, ate Roma Deli and had Koi after that. Roma Deli food are nice, actually i think non-vegetarians can tahan.. Maybe we can try that sometime ya..

Nothing much to say now.. cause my feelings a little 七上八下. Unsure what happen, but not stress.. Just dont feel really happy and not really sad. Its like Woosh.. I get over this matter.. Looking forward to another one..

Going Dukw tour tmr.. hehe =D

Tuas so far...

2010-07-25T23:17:00.006+08:00

Supposed to have an interview tmr, so went to check out the place today. At TUAS Checkpoint, far right, alight at Boon Lay then take one bus.. Took the bus got lots of factories, mainly food and drugs company.. Noe reluctant, unsure if i should go for the interview..

Went NYNY for lunch, shared with Lilian one platter appetizer and dessert. the Platter dish is so big that it cover the whole table. Ate caramelized banana waffle , super nice too but a bit too sweet for us hehe

Then went to buy a new earpiece, so sad my earpiece spoil le so went to buy one.. Bought it at Popular, and got free Polar cake and hotdog puff.. haha

Went Empress Dowager's place after that. She's look ok, pretty happy. Hope she stay ok as always. Rest Well. Super worried when I heard her health condition aint good, but now its kinda in control.

People keep commenting this and that, didnt realise its hurt people's pride and confidence. Quarreled with my mum over this issue. Now she is convinced. For I say, "针没刺伤你，你是不会觉得痛的". I think everyone feels the same way as me ba..

My Monday and Thursday's modules swapped.. So do remember the right notes k, LISA.. HAHA No one knows whats gonna happen tmr. So live well, stay well, BE well =)

movie!!

2010-07-24T22:05:00.006+08:00

Watched Despicable me yesterday night. Very nice movie, super funny even though with a little childish storyline. find the songs nice, this is one of them.

My Life by Robin Thicke

For Lyrics,

I met this pretty girl
She was from D.C.
I liked the way that she smiled

Said, “There’s a party tonight,
You oughta come with me.”
She said, “Baby, I’ll try.”

I waited all night long
For her to walk in
For her to bring me her light

Then she came in the room
She looked right at me
She was the vision of my life

CHORUS:
(I love) My life
Everything is wonderful
My life
The sun is out; it’s shining so bright
My life
Just like it’s supposed to go
My life
And it’s just getting started tonight
You and me, we’re living the dream tonight, tonight
You and me, we’re living the dream alright, alright
You and me, we’re living the dream tonight, tonight
You and me, we’re living the dream alright, alright

I’m in the perfect place
Can’t wipe the smile off my face
Ain’t nothin’ bringing me down

I feel like clappin’ my hands
I feel like stompin’ my feet
I feel like groovin’ all night

With your body close to me
I hope you can feel my energy
Watch you move your body
Get hot with me
You and I are celebrating tonight

It’s all around me now
You couldn’t stop it if you tried
Today is like no other day
‘Cuz I’m havin’ the time of my life

CHORUS:
Everything is wonderful
My life
The sun is out; it’s shining so bright
My life
Just like it’s supposed to go
My life
And it’s just getting started tonight
You and me, we’re living the dream tonight, tonight
You and me, we’re living the dream alright, alright
You and me, we’re living the dream tonight, tonight
You and me, we’re living the dream alright, alright

Take me to the sky
Like never before, like never before
And we’ll lie back on the moon
Like never before, like never before

(Nah-Nah-Nah…etc.)

CHORUS:
(I love) My life
Everything is wonderful
My life
The sun is out; it’s shining so bright
My life
Just like it’s supposed to go
My life
And it’s just getting started tonight
You and me, we’re living the dream tonight, tonight
You and me, we’re living the dream alright, alright
You and me, we’re living the dream tonight, tonight
You and me, we’re living the dream alright, alright

Tonight, tonight
Alright, alright
Tonight, tonight
Alright, alright

Lyrics from: elyricsworld

Finally

2010-07-22T22:22:00.007+08:00

Finally, finish all the tests le, now gotta rush my assignments and whats so ever not.. Not touching my book this week and gotta find the place at Tuas for my interview next Monday. Both excited and nervous >.<

Thought I change my blogskin?? Nope. Just add and change some icons and codes.. And some widgets.. Look better now right? haha =D thanks for some of sources i found.

My colleagues are quitting soon. Uni starting soon.. Thank my colleagues for telling some UNI stuff, the schedule, structure etc. Even though i cant go Local UNI, at least i know some info haha =D

To enjoy our last days,we are exploring Circular road. Ate at Rabbit brand seafood , all set meal de, rather cheap.. below 15 set lunch. Buddha jumps over the wall at about $8.90.. Quite cheap right??

Then, we ate at 大碗粥 yesterday as i feel like trying.. Not bad but must share that kind. So we ordered 2 types of porridge and 2 sides, around $45 plus for 4. Around a OK price i think.

Ate at Paradise Inn at Funan, also not bad.. But also must share de.. After this lesson, then i realise actually how things are priced. Maybe, hanged around with my family to restaurants and me not the one paying..Didnt really know how the payment are like..

BUT now I know, i do learn something. Learn to pick up courage to ask for help..Talk on the phone, trying to be thick-skinned enough to accept scoldings. SO i learn something i think.

Wander what to put for my icon, love 2 anime - Chrono Crusade & Shakugan no Shana .. And i chose one, pretty cool ah.. Its supposed to be animated de, but a little bigger than i expected.. Wanna see click here

Going to enjoy myself tomorrow, watching movie with my sister.. What movie?? Despicable Me Who wanna watch Inception, can let me join you??

Buzy Buzzi

2010-07-18T10:48:00.002+08:00

Supposed to go big walk today de, but didnt go cause my stress blood start flowing tremendously.. So decided not to go.. Feel so bad sia, dont know what to do like that.. But to make the sacrifice worthwhile, I will study hard for the paper.

People keep asking if I can manage work and study life, keep telling me the fact that I actually cant manage.. Then what'd want me to do? To prevent myself having a very free day, I have to work.. This is equally to selling my time to people, and lesser time for myself.

But I'm not the only one, i think. My course mates took off for exams and papers. So, we are equally competent.

Pretty sad over the results i get for the previous paper. I know how to do all the questions but I dont know why.. People say maybe I'm stress.. If you can see how I feeling, maybe i cant deny it le lor.

But i dont like exams la, now till.. So like a immature kid.. But I dont care.. Exams are like a interrogating session of teachers to students. Hence, I dont like it, dont have luck for it either.. I seem to be different ever since the O-level retest.. Like the total attitude change..

I wanna be who I used to be.. The confident and successful me.. Back to the COOL me, the ARROGANT me?? Is that good at all? I dont know, but I just know i have to work..

I'm sorry to ruin the 1st trill experience of a marathon. To make myself less guilty, I will strive hard and score well for these 2 papers. LISA FIGHTING!!

And I realise, I tweet more than i blog.. haha =D

Food source

2010-07-14T21:58:00.001+08:00

Was into 1 show recently, 'Food source', i think on every wed channel 8..

Nice show, somehow show the food source of every country.. Like M'sia, Taiwan etc.

What I like about this show?

Its just show you how hard for them to get those food for you. Like Caviar, grapes, mango, tea, lychee etc.

And showing hard my favourite food are made before selling, made me treasure them more haha.

Like fruits and vegetables, so wont hesitate to try them. But for meat? Maybe there's constraints, so i not really into it.

Since i dont eat much meat, why i gain weight?
I think fruits got lots of sugars- fructose and sucrose and other sugars.. And lack of exercise perhaps.. Gotta Keep it up!!

Tests coming, worried.. Wish me luck

LISA FIGHTING!!

Money

2010-07-12T07:35:00.002+08:00

Are money that important? But will life be easier if money was not invented. Back to the barbarians era?? If no money, no progression actually

Come to think of it, if Romans and Arabians do not come up with numbers, Egyptians dont build the pyramids, prize exchanges may not occur. OR I should say, if people will not be envying others, maybe exchanges may not occurred.

If you have notice, I've wrote lots of things about money here and thereafter? Why? Somehow money caused lots of problems recently?

Money?
Something that people dont find it enough
Something that people dont find its more that enough
Something that people dont find its antique
Something that people dont find its bothersome to keep

Money?
Something that first started the word, international
Something that first started class and status
Something that first started the task, hobby
Something that first started wants and needs

I need them and despise them, how great can that be?

People are funny creatures, if you treat them well, they will think if its due to their money? If you treat them badly, they will think if its due to their poor? Unsure if they have watched too much drama, very drama right?

We dont have any control for money.. Its something that we are being controlled of, being hypnotized by it, get paranoid by it, get greed by it, get hysterical by it and just never ends.

I dont hate it, just my environment was controlled by it. AND I hate that overbearing tone.

p.s. Having 2 interviews today, wish me luck. Dont think I can meet sushi for the change of plans. Will meet ya soon =D

Peace ^-^

2010-07-10T10:20:00.004+08:00

I'm all better now.. No longer living ina hay-wired world, although I may say ridiculous things at times.. Bear with me haha

Tend to have the usual weekend schedule nowadays, mugged in school and shopping after that. AND sunday? A sleep-a-lot day..

So what have I done last week? Erm, its BP mentoring hand-over ceremony, thus Lilian went to see the ceremony. While I was mugging in school, library scanned my results documents, compelte my part and play my games. Since, I've been playing while working, the 'itch' is not there. Thu, i can actually concentrate.

Oh ya, I saw terence, think he's the photographer for the ceremony again haha=D

After all are done, we went to shop at Novena. Went square 2, novena square and united square. Went novena square's Hagen-Diaz. Wanna try something not so healthy, so i tried Tiramisu in a cone. Lilian stated i eat too slow le.. Maybe indeed. cause the cone tip melted, and when i lift it up.. the sauce came running like a running tap.. So embarassing.

Then we went to eat at HK wang's cafe, ate the papaya milk beehoon.. Not bad, but very big bowl.. cant finish. Serious. Then Lilian brought me to the candy shop, was fascinated about the candy-making process, cant bear to leave.

We past by Build-a-bear workshop, u know right, our Ms. Lilian was so excited when looking at it.. Dont want to leave. Ask me can buy the bear mah? I was like erm, its not up to me to decide. I like dogs, wolves, foxes rodents and turtles while she like bears.. We are animal lovers haha.. I mean the world are, I believe. So wanna go Canberra zoo. I wanna try carrying lion, cheetahs cubs. Seem so cool when i watched on TV.

Was kinda 'forced' to take 1/2 day leave on monday due to some.. 'Long Story', dont wanna say. To make this day fufilling, I went Eye center with Lilian, ate KFC, then went K@moberly to sing K. That Ms. Lilian wanna sing 1 hr, which its not enough de lor, and then she believed.. i quickly signed up for another hour, you see i so efficient haha =D

Then continue with lessons and work, went to send resumes and there are replies.. HAPPY ^-^ able to squeeze 2 on monday, since cher postponed his test to next next monday (remind me to take leave), I will made it fufilling too. Wish me luck =D

Oh ya, Sushi's back. manage to meet her next monday, eating at soup spoon at ION orchard. Hope to see her soon..

What am i doing today?? Mugged le, then go suntec carrefour for my marketing project. Checking out stuffs i need. Hope it helps... BUT!! 2AM going IMM today lei, so wanna go but at the grand plaza, then my 'height' can see wat ah.. Should have buy 2 milo tins to make me look taller.. LOL or I walk on stilts instead.. But I have 'heights' lei.. Will see how later..

Meeting my AFT friends tmr to mug at Changi airport. Have not study with friends in Poly days,so wonder how is it like? Will be a good one i believe.

Busy July, but will be free after July 22.. Lots of events coming up in Aug YOG holidays.. Cant wait.. Lists of plans piling up haha =D then exams after that..

LISA FIGHTING!!

p.s I will be the one for all your answers.. i will be the one for your comfort.. Will be there for you always ^-^

Whats wrong with me??

2010-07-01T08:00:00.002+08:00

Whats wrong with me?
Sick again.. Why?
Because I'm too stressed??
Dont felt so, really!!
However, Family stated so.

Maybe indeed..
For my time are spent for my job and studies
Cant really plan time for myself

But it can be solved, a easy problem actually.
But lots of easy sums became a hard one..
This cause me to be paranoid and stressed.
Indirectly, sicked.

So hate myself now,
felt useless and stupid
for its a very stupid and easy sum to handle
but I just didnt solve it
was traumatized because of this problem sums
that made me sick and a joke in front of everyone

Whats wrong with me?
The same problem keep happening..
Can I really cope?
Or I am not that great I think I am after all..

Whats wrong with me?
I should have settled this.
Since, I took sick leave
I should solve my problems now.
Its not a disease.
Its a psychological disorder.

Last day of june

2010-06-30T22:51:00.003+08:00

Before July occurred, lets see what's have happen:

Sunday:
Empress Dowager surprise party..

Had a great time there, flew kite, walked around Pasir Ris park, wanting to tried cycling but the ankle remedy occurred. PAIN!! But its a great time, although some mishaps occurred. Then went white sands to eat and ready to school..

Then, school starts, blurred week occurring... What happen? U will see.

Monday:
School starts!! Boohoo!! Not really sad la, just very tired. Maybe long time didnt play so hard, thats why feel achy.. So noob right? haha =p

Changed my diet plan- eat light breakfast, heavy lunch and light dinner. Had a banana every morning now. Why? Cause my gastric and stomach problem coming back.. Not LBS, just some digestion problem i think..

Tuesday:
Cant seem to sleep, insomnia occurring. MILD sleeping disorder. Made my day blurred, not sure what am I doing?

Its lunch, so waiting for lifts, so many lifts packed. Finally, one empty lift. I went in, and was asked to leave..Why?? Cause the minister is inside the lift, So MALU! >.< I felt so bad after that.. Like a joke in front of everyone. But my colleagues are nice, they didnt mention anymore after that. This helps me to forget the matter, but I still remember it.. LOL

Wednesday aka today:
Had a great day today, cause no school, no rain haha LOL. But pretty sad cause one of my favorite artiste passed away. If you read my twitter updates, u will know.

Still great today, for i got my lappy problem fixed. And there's virus on my comm.. Got to format it soon. But when? Assignment did wrongly, will get it done on thursday =)

Thats all, sleep early girl, then no more blur days..

Fun B4 school starts again..

2010-06-25T14:07:00.004+08:00

Took leave today to complete my assignments and some research for my future FYP, if I can find info regarding it?? Doing now, marketing and Food Ingredients.. Have gain some weight during the holidays, cause no need to stuck to eating bread for dinner, so ya.. that's why haha =D

Had a great time going out for dinner, buying new clothes and stuffs.. Getting my stuffs settled. Eventful days before school started again.. Begins from Wednesday haha =D

Wednesday:
Here comes a sms: "Not watching at Iluma cause yaya maybe joining us, watched at Bugis ok?

Another sms: Accidentally bought 3-D de, watched 3-D de ok mah??

My reply: Ok (for both), what time is the movie? Her Reply: 710

What am I watching? With? Toy story 3 with Yinzhi and Lilian and ended up 3D version.. Not regretting, its fun actually. Dont dare to watch 3D for the reason that I tend to get giddy at times. Maybe Omni theatre de too 3D le LOL

My office at City hall, so intended to walk to Bugis instead.. Called to tell them I'm reaching.. Know what she say? They stated they having High-tea now.. LOL High-tea at 5? Who eat High tea at 5 de haha =D They are like so full and I'm super hungry lor when I met them.. But they are nice la, we went to eat Pasta mania.. FULL~ ^^

Toy Story 3? A great movie, funny also. But had brought a conclusion too.. Not giddy when I watch it, so I can handle it.. Just cant watch too long, cause the glasses are heavy.. Not wearing specs de wont understand de.. And another conclusion- I scared of dolls, the voices they made just give me the creeps. So NO dolls since young, my peeps & parents know me so well haha =D

Thursday:
Went to City Square for dinner at an Italian Restaurant. Restaurant name too long so forget it ah haha =D Met Benji, Jessle and Eugene for dinner.. Price are cheap so they bought a variety, all of us bought 2 dishes only Eugene bought 3.. HE sure can eat haha =D Finally eaten my squid-ink spaghetti, its BLACK.. I think maybe the colour and the after- effect (Mouth and teeth BLACK), thats why they dont dare to try. I didnt mix well so all the olive oil sink to the bottom.. Bought the carrot sweetened corn too NICE!! haha =D

Their Ratings for the Restaurant: GOOD!! haha =D Glad they like it.. Didnt buy desserts, cause too full le. Feel so odd if I'm the only one to buy, so didnt buy.. Then we went to walk around the mall for better digestion..

Then, came across this at SEOUL GARDEN-- EXTENDED STUDENT MEAL FOR STUDENT MEALS, DINNER: 13.90++ WE are like in awe.. Its cheap la!! But ONLY at City square mall and from Monday to Thursday ONLY.. Know how we feel?? Never mind, we wait for other holidays special ba.

Glad that they dont mind meeting up during holidays, so will have another meet up during the August holidays. Showed them the rotary hotpot that I wanna try with them.. They dont mind it. But maybe going sing K instead.. Jess stated Chinatown one cheaper..

Let's see how when the time comes.. ^-^

No longer going Sentosa on SUNDAY, go Pasir Ris Park instead.. PICNIC.. POTLUCK style.. haha Flying kite there also. Didnt fly kite before, so wonder how's my first attempt would be like.. FLY ok KITE?? Dont make feel malu in front of my cousins k? P.S. I'm ranked 2ND among them, but the SHORTEST among the older ones too.. HAHA =D What to do??

AND mainly the Sunday Picnic is to celebrate my Empress Dowager Birthday.. But she dont know, Its a surprise haha =D Thought of what to get for her le, sharing price with Lilian, hope she like it =)Thanks for friends who provide the info ^^

Will be a busy day tomorrow too. And glad the rain stops, if time allows, I maybe going out to check out the stuffs.

FUN just never ends unless you choose to.. haha =D

Stop dreaming please

2010-06-21T22:20:00.003+08:00

Have not been myself these few days, not sure what's wrong with me.. Seriously I dont know what's wrong.. Nothing much to think about actually, maybe i dislike people for not giving a reply, that I do not know what's my plan for later.

My sis say I'm a person that is lack of confidence but a really careful person. That's true!! Will never let myself fall, even if I fall, I wont show it out, will just stand up immediately. Dont really tell people how upset I am, or how pissed I am. Unknowingly, it may show actually. Just without me realising it...

Maybe been made fun since young hence will tell myself to stand tall. A glamorous person would never know how a 'dark' person feel. I am always in the dark, wanna someone to notice me at certain time, but would also prefer people to leave me alone. For the reason, that I am not that great to look at.

For I'm being made fun of, been pushed down the stair, been hit by shoes, been feared by cockroaches and bees. Was telling myself that there's no one to help me since then, why am I waiting for one now? I stand alone, will stand tall. Thats how that arrogant LISA came about in my secondary school days.

I watched dramas, but I dont think I'm really into it.. Maybe its because I'm really lonely, my heart felt empty. Unsure who can I approach when I'm feeling down, hence my mind is in a twirl.

Just hate rejections and be laughed at, hence I'll protect myself. Will not let myself fall. I believe if I show my emotions, means I care, and I dont wanna let him know I care. I dont wanna let him know where he stands, for I know I'm not in any of his positions eh.. Why would I show it out? I can remain cool which I used to be, which people find me handsome.. LOL I can be pretty cold at times, which people cant stand it. haha

Stop dreaming, dont bother about him anymore. For the reason that there's aint a need to bother isnt it? Just focus what's I'm doing and stand upright again.. Like I always do..

Will stand tall and not fall. Stand strong LISA. Stop Dreaming. He wont come true to you.

Got to finish my report, otherwise will see me crying soon haha =D

P.S. I love you, still love you.. But you didnt seem to feel it aint it? Then why should I bother to spend time for you, to spend thoughts for you.. Maybe this is just my wishful thinking..

Digusted by.. myself

2010-06-18T15:45:00.002+08:00

So odd to blog in school, cause no privacy.. Anyway If I blog online.. Its no longer privacy. LOL My mood swings coming back, maybe get tired of something or just feeling down for no whatever reason.

I do not have a good rapport with anyone. Not emo-ing here, but just state the truth honestly. Tell me who will spend 15 mins chatting with me? Think about it, people barely talk to me in 5 minutes. I dont seem to be close with my family, in a way I dont seem to see laughter in the house with me in the picture. Maybe I'm too tense or what, I'm not very sure. Or i treat my house as a motel and an atm machine. Dont seem to have a telepathy with them, they need to voice out so directly.. I Just couldnt sense what they want and said.

Honestly, I do not have a close relationship with my parents. So to avoid one to one conversation and to keep thinking what they want, I just go out. Do everything alone.. Commonly labeled as LONER!! But I dont think that whats it means ba.. More like LAZY which I can define. To avoid arguments, I usually avoid one to one conversation or sitting side by side with parents if I can. Just scram or hide in the room to do my things. Cause I dont know what they want at times.

Couldnt care less now to see whether people actually read my blog.. Cause I know not many will unless they are too bored or no others to read ba. Just like to hide at one corner, dont treat me significant at times, for I dislike to face the crowds.

What I'm worrying of? Maybe my imbalance hormone level ba. Why? Cause I seem to laugh and cry for no reason. I wasnt sad at something, but just cry for no reason. To console myself, I just tell myself that the tears would wet my eyes as my eyes are dry always. Trying to control my laughter, but I just burst out laughing for no reason too. Something wrong eh?

Sometimes people asked, Don't you want to spare some time for a boyfriend? Since my schedule is so busy.. work in day and study at night.. Study in weekends etc. Anyway, i'm not interested in love life. Fear of being love and be loved, I think that's BULLSHIT!! (apologize if I offend anyone). Why being in love anyway? When you know in the end you will die alone, and left everyone (closed ones and friends) crying. To avoid that, I rather not have one.

I'm a selfish person anyway, from the way I see my relationships with people. Cant really spare a thought for people at times. Just wanna do things my way, anyway who don't? But realise I'm not ready to share things with people yet. Hence, I wont step myself into one. Very troublesome!!

I'm a weird person also, I like one-sided relationship. Will get tired of it if I know its a reciprocated love or he's taken. I'll just find another one. I get tired over things easily, thus I dont know what I want at times. Same for my career, faves, music etc. Just know my love for things wont last. Answered your question?

I dont voice things out easily and as simply, cause I realise no one wanna listen. Maybe they think thats RUBBISH!! Hence, If I cant handle it, I will still voice out, be it they like it or not.. Ended up getting scolded. So like everyday thing le, so not my day if I'm not scolded by one.. LOL

Going back to do my work.. got lots to do. But dont really feel stress. Had it organised. Will find a new job soon, searching for a permament one. Better get a secure job to save money for my studies overseas, if i can.. By all means, why not?

Wanna be independent. Why? So I wont face people at all. NO!! Just being independent will make me treasure more stuffs I used to have for the whole 20+ years. Maybe I'm too fortunate that I'm taking things for granted. I quite spoilt at times, my parents didnt spoilt me HONEST, Just my attitude.. I dont express gratitude which put me at a disadvantage.

Got lots of things to learn eh.. Nobody is perfect anyway. However, I wanna make myself into a better person. The more I wanted to, the more I hate myself. For this, I'm at a disadvantage to others.

Am I a perfectionist? I dont think I am. Otherwise, my results wont be like this.
I want things to be perfect to avoid scoldings. Fond of looking for loop-holes for situations, as this helps me to solve my problems. If I have solved all the expected and unexpected situations(indirect problems), the task will end perfectly. Hence, tend to look at loop-holes of situations to get me out of situations. So my strength? Looking for Loop-holes!! LOL

Better get back to work.. Continue to run LISA, run-away from situations and start afresh.. Ain't this what you are good at? Always looking out for a detour to solve your problems. Great to find an exit to get away from tough situations. Hate to make tough situations and always push to people. To avoid scoldings, will push the blame to anyone. And dont feel any guilt! Hate naggings and run to the room. Lock yourself in the room and hide yourself in one corner and CRY.. Aint this what you are good at, LISA!!

Felt disgusted.. I'm so disgusting!! Hard to wash off the DIRT. I'm just an ordinary girl, maybe dependable at times.. or actually ALWAYS!! But I wont find you if I can solve my problems. Will picked myself up easily now, Wont be saddened for no reason. As I know if I am upset or angry over any matter, I have LOST to the battles and games. So, I wont cry, wont show my fears, wont show my anger to such situations.

Stand up LISA!! Solve this yourself. No one will help you, cause there's NO ONE in your HELP-LIST. There's NO ONE in your SPEED DIAL. Anyway, I DONT need anyone.. I just need myself. And I will SOLVE this myself.

LISA, aint A WEAKLING!! Just a TROUBLED one!!

P.S. Felt insecure easily at times, hence tend to find things to hold and hug.. Lately realise, I'm not the only one... I just an ordinary person. No one is perfect. But I loves perfection.

Love notes

2010-06-16T00:46:00.002+08:00

Thought I receive a love note, no la haha =) Have a long time conversation on MSN sometime ago during work haha =) He's doing his project now, arts. He's wanna work on idol drama, so approached me for ideas. Why me? For my fave for drama and songs, i'm one of his help line haha. So, ya haha =D

Was to think some love quotes, so u realized i have placed some at the end of my blog.. I'm not in love, just placed this inspiration down. I think he dont mind eh.. cause he dont read my blog anyway haha =)

Here's the conversation:

He said: Help me with this
I said: help what?? haha
He said: soem quotes of thoughts, as usual

I said: oh haha.. Rmb what Emily told me that time.
Sorry Lisa, this guy is taken..
And you blushed haha
He said: LOL

I said: Maybe this..
If couples must have similarities. I would like my other half to love tea.
He said: Actually all couples have similarities, for their love for each other.
I said: So I did help haha

He said: thanks. But I still love this
Why are hugs so warmth and intimate but I cant see your lovely face.
I said: that's so long time ago.
thought of a new one:
Love is like 4 seasons- Pure like Spring, Enthusiastic like Summer,
Passionate like Autumn and everlasting like winter.
He said: not bad :)

--------------------End of Conversation----------------------

Honestly, we wont be so direct as for what we did for our production. I wanna be a scriptwriter, but cause of my language.. Its aint very good. Wanna be a lyric writer too, so learn from my friends - he (Gareth), Michael, Samantha and more.. All of them are overseas, in different parts of the world.. So pretty sad. :(

But look at those lyrics, so direct and passionate.. Hence people always stated- a song state true feelings for one. Songs are easier to express feelings. So true haha :D

If you know me well, i have lots of dreams.. I wanna try lots of things but no courage to do so. So, I'm a rather timid person. Have started to learn to bring up my courage to do things. Feeling happier now. :)

P.S. Lets write our song, our secret, a key to our relationship..

Love ya

2010-06-15T19:40:00.001+08:00

Yeah, huh
Here we go once again
Guess who's back, let's go
This one is all about you
I really hate you but I love you
So what can I do?
Now listen

Neoreul bomyeon apa, sumi neomu gappa, ije nae sonjaba
Geu sarameun neoreul saranghaji eanhneunde wae?
Why don't you get it?
Baby let me
Love ya, love ya, love ya

Nae jeonbureul georeo, I jumuneun georeo, we can be so perfect
Sesangmodu jeokidwindahaedo naneun andwae
Neo animyeon andwae
Baby let me
Love ya, love ya, love ya

Oneureun yeotaekkeot gidaryeosseo
Mianhae ganjeolhi baraewasseo
Nal bitgyeogattdeon ni uraen sarangi janinhage kkeulnagireul
Geusaram ijeo, ijen jiweobeoryeo
Eochapi neohaguneun eoolriji anhaneungeol
So baby wont you come to me
I'll make you make you happy

Neoreul bomyeon apa, sumi neomu gapen, ijen naesun japa
Geu sarameun neoreul saranghajieanhneunde wae?
Why don't you get it?
Baby let me
Love ya, love ya, love ya

Nae jeonbureul georeo, I jumuneun georeo, we can be so perfect
Sesangmodu jeokidwindahaedo naneun andwae
Neo animyeon andwae
Baby let me
Love ya, love ya, love ya

Cheoeumen haengbokhagil baraesseo
Geude birok geusaram yeopeseorado
Mideosseoseo. Na eopsi haengbokhadamyeon, geugeolro chungbunhaesseo
Hajiman, neoui nunmol ipuyeo. Neoui seulpeumi boryeo
Amuri chamabwado andwae ijen jichyeo michyeo
I cannot let it go, I gotta take you
Ije uri unmyeongingeol yeah

Neoreul bomyeon apa, sumi neomu gapen, ijen naesun japa
Geu sarameun neoreul saranghajieanhneunde wae?
Why don't you get it?
Baby let me
Love ya, love ya, love ya

Nae jeonbureul georeo, I jumuneun georeo, we can be so perfect
Sesangmodu jeokidwindahaedo naneun andwae
Neo animyeon andwae
Baby let me
Love ya, love ya, love ya

Eotteohke neon moreuneunde? Hapil geu saraminde?
Neoui apeun sarangddawin nan bolsueoptneunde
Ijteo, ni kaseum myeondeulgehaneun geureon nappeunsarang
Ijen jipeochyeo please! Apeun neoreul guhagesseo
Geoule bichin neoui nunmuli sorieopsi, euimodoeopsi heureulddae
Naegaseumeun wanjeonhi jjiteojineungeol, I can cross over the sea
Nareul mideojwi, haneule maengsehalge
Urin majimak sarangi dwiltenikka yeah

Neoreul bomyeon apa
Sumi neomu gapa
I simjangi apa
Geu sarameun neoreul saranghajianhaneunde wae?
Why don't you get it? Baby let me
Love ya, love ya, love ya

Nae jeonbureul georeo, I jumuneul georeo, we can be so perfect
Sesangmodu jeokidwindahaedo naneun andwae
Neo animyeon andwae
Baby let me
Love ya, love ya, love ya
Let me love you baby!

Andwae,
Andwae,
Neoeopsin...

By: lyricsmode

P.S. New song of ss501, found this online. Which is better? haha =)

P.S. Just give me a hug, and I'll b satisfied.

Sunny day

2010-06-14T22:11:00.001+08:00

Went to NSM on sunday, lucky we only went there. Cause its big haha. We took a bus there to avoid the PC show crowds.. Somehow assured have lots of people. We just went 2 galleries, havent finish exploring the place yet. We spent 2 hours in the history gallery. Its cool in the way the museum is high tech. Give you a ticket, enter the gallery by scanning the bar code.. COOL!! haha =D the history gallery involves a companion, something like a i-palm, they will tell you the details of the history of Singapore.

Then we went the Singapore 1960s, a small one but nice also. Having speaker like a cup.. I was like playing with the cup haha. Wayang costume shimmering and bling bling like always.. But learnt more about Singapore

Photos? Its with Lilian, lazy to upload.. Sorry

I have to thank my sis, Lilian.. Why? Cause I always wanna be a tour agent, bringing people around Singapore, wander around the world. Wanna be a stewardess, so i can some sort travel around the world for free.. So want to go Europe, loves the part where they separated the country by a street.. But you know erhemm (my height and u know what), stewardess is a NO-NO already. Tour agent is good enough, but its not a very stable career so not very well-supported. But thanks for letting me be one this weekends. At least I fulfilled my dreams =D

After the museum, went PS for lunch cause nothing much to eat at the Cathay. And went to do rubber art after that. If you pass by Sand art stores, you will see rubber art. So wanna do those art stuffs when we were young, BUT some say its a waste of money. (my dad is one of them LOL). While doing, saw lots of people doing cosplays. Super nice, honestly.. Only Anime fans know who they are haha !! Some find it exaggerating, but it took courage to do so. Anyway, here its not Japan. But its cool.

Honestly, Rubber art is fun, relaxing and takes concentration. Some way or another, I threw all my sorrows and frustration at that period of time. I got to do twice, cause my 1st masterpiece was spoiled due to the insufficient amount of paint =( So got to do the 2nd. Fun about rubber art is that you can paste them anywhere. Serious, anywhere.. wall, bed, cardboard or even the toilet lol.. Was telling Lilian that we can make a Disney collection of rubber art haha =D

Exhibit fee -> $5 per person haha =D

Had rest enough, will have to start work tomorrow.. Got lots to be done. Was like saying I'm no better than a full time student, just lesser modules only. But I enjoyed it. Maybe I'm one that have to be in a busy schedule. I feel so refreshed, happier and hyper nowadays. I enjoy these moments. Must really force myself to do work haha =D

Lots of events coming ahead!!

P.S. Love is like 4 seasons- Pure like Spring, Enthusiastic like Summer, Passionate like Autumn and everlasting like winter.

Love like this

2010-06-13T22:33:00.000+08:00

Love like This…

Hey Girl, ijen neoreul boyeojwo naege
geuman neoui mameul
Won’t you, my girl (my girl)

Hey girl, now I show you
Stop your heart
Won’t you, my girl (my girl)

hangsang mangseorineun neon jeongmal babo
jeongmal neoneun babo
o~ malhaejwoyo
Always hesitant, you are really a fool
Really a fool
Oh~ Talk to me

wae, neon moreuni
neon nal moreuni
neol wonhaneun nae mam modu da gajyeogajwo

Why, you don’t know
You don’t know me
I wish that you will take away my whole heart

naege geochim eobsi
tteollim eobsi your love!

(I have) no hesitation
No trembling (not nervous) My love!

Chorus:
Love, naege wa. neon, like this.
So Love, gidarin neoran girl
True love, dagawa neon like this.
One Love, neon naege neon naegero

Love, come to me. You, like this
So Love, waiting for you girl
True Love, approach (me). You, like this
One Love, you, me, you come to me.

Love, naege wa. neon, like this.
So Love, gidarin neoran girl
True love, dagawa neon like this.
One Love, neon naege neon naegero

Love, come to me. You, like this
So Love, waiting for you girl
True Love, approach (me). You, like this
One Love, you, me, you come to me

Hey Girl! oneul ttara deo yeppeo boyeo.
nae mamui Key~juin baro neon Girl~

Hey Girl! Today of all days, you look prettier
My heart’s key ~ Owner (is) none other than you Girl ~

neol tteoollimyeon, naneun neomu tteollyeo
sojunghan neo baro naui Baby Baby

If (I) recall, I am very nervous
Precious none other than you, my Baby Baby

wae, neon moreuni, wae
neon nal moreuni wae
neol wonhaneun nae mam modu da gajyeogajwo.

Why, don’t you know
You don’t know me
I wish that you will take away my whole heart

ttan geon pillyo eobseo
ojik wonhaneun geon Your Love!

I don’t need another
I only wish for Your Love!

Chorus:
Love, naege wa. neon, like this.
So Love, gidarin neoran girl
True love, dagawa neon like this.
One Love, neon naege neon naegero

Love, come to me. You, like this
So Love, waiting for you girl
True Love, approach (me). You, like this
One Love, you, me, you come to me.

Love, naege wa. neon, like this.
So Love, gidarin neoran girl
True love, dagawa neon like this.
One Love, neon naege neon naegero

Love, come to me. You, like this
So Love, waiting for you girl
True Love, approach (me). You, like this
One Love, you, me, you come to me

I need you,
You need me.
urineun gyeolguk hamkke hal kkeoya
mangseorijima, naman ttarawa
ijen~~~yeah~

I need you
You need me
We will eventually be together
Don’t hesitate, follow me only
Now~~~ Yeah~

Lyric by: Babyfan

P.S. Saw this MV on TV (K-pop). Seem to laugh at their dance steps haha =D Cause very cute and funny. Honestly, I wont be so daring to be so direct. Read in the news that wedding pics are now taking in common places- MRT, Supermarkets etc. instead of beaches and parks. Sweet memories awaits them =)

P.S. Memories hold at a place and will stay there forever. For it to be good or bad, its in your hands.

Brave but aint enough

2010-06-12T22:41:00.003+08:00

Applause people!! haha. Why? Cause I'm able to bring up my courage and KILLED 2 hornets yesterday. I'm scared of hornets and still lots of them every morning. They will stopped by every morning.. Not just one but a whole family of them. Honestly, I dont have a choice, if I dont kill them, I cant go for work. The hornets, on the other hand, were actually helping me. If I cant stand them, I can actually take leave LOL

Took half day, meeting Lilian at half past noon. Went to Niwa Sushi before we start our marathon. Went PC show, super crowded, realized some dislike really crowded crowds, so went other places instead. Thinking to buy one ipod, if the price is similar outside, i will buy outside. And its true, so i will buy my ipod in July haha =D

Walked for 7 hours from Suntec-> Marina-> Milena Walk-> Suntec -> Clarke Quay -> Raffles ->Esplande-> City hall.. By walking haha, took lots of pics but not by me haha =D Saw someone performing, JUKEBOX, really cool. Was super stunned and engrossed to it. But as the crowd get bigger, decided to turn home.

Legs super tired but fun haha =D

Went Changi Airport to mug today. Sorted out my list of assignments, realised I'm no better than a full time student. Got lots of things to study LOL I'm the 'must keep myself busy' kind so I'm happy with it. Cause easier for me to plan my schedule haha. Got some reports to do, study for tests and various assignments haha =D

Going to 2 museums tomorrow -> NSM and Philatelic Museum.. Walked there again? May have to think about it. Or maybe catching a movie instead, see whats happening stuff gonna happen tomorrow.

P.S. I am shocked to see you like this. I am disgusted to see you beside her. I am feared to see you laugh with her. I pondered why are you always with her. I wondered if you ever love me. If that's really happen: means I have lost this game also mean my love for you went deeper.

Confused

2010-06-06T13:49:00.003+08:00

Really do need some time to think..
Hard to make the choice between the two
What do I want?
Truth and Likings don't really match eh?

Do really need some time to think
But this seems to confuse me more..

Just LIVE for today..
And THINK more for later
Maybe this is how it should be

P.S. Saranghae.. this seems so hard to say.. for I hate rejections.. And looking up to perfection

Because of You

2010-06-04T00:02:00.002+08:00

I… still… can’t… get over you
I never forget…
Boy I never forget…. boy

Can’t remember how many years it has been since we broke up
But I cry every time when I think about you
Why I’m so eager to see you today?
The sound of rain droplets leaves my heart shaken up.

I regret giving you my love
I regret getting attached to you
I regret holding you back
Why do I have to face the pain alone?
I regret giving you my love
I regret getting attached to you
I regret holding you back
Why do I have to face the pain alone?

I tried to be your only girl
And did you ever understood my heart?
Now it became the compass
Of broken love
Tears are flowing down
And soaks the dry lips
Oh what should I do,
Now I can’t erase you out of my mind

I cried a lot because of you (I cried every night~)
I laughed a lot because of you (Because of you)
I believed in the love because of you (Wooh boy~)
I’ve lost everything because of you
I’m speechless, suffocating and lonely
The world without you has
Chewed out my heart
Stomped on my dignity
Torn apart my heart
So why did you leave me behind?

It also rained on that day
You’ve stared at me wordlessly
You’ve stared at nothing else but me
Those trembling gazes,
And the awkwardly forced smile
Speaks of our separation.

I regret giving you my love
I regret getting attached to you
I regret holding you back
Why do I have to face the pain alone?
I regret giving you my love
I regret getting attached to you
I regret holding you back
Why do I have to face the pain alone?

You’ve told me to leave
And the moment leave
You treat me as if I’m insane
It’s just too hard (boy slow down)
Then I cry silently and wordlessly
Cause I want to stay next to u
My luv is true, wanna go back 2 when I was with u

I cried a lot because of you (I cried every night~)
I laughed a lot because of you (Because of you)
I believed in the love because of you (Wooh boy~)
I’ve lost everything because of you
I’m speechless, suffocating and lonely
The world without you has
Chewed out my heart
Stomped on my dignity
Torn apart my heart
So why did you leave me behind?

I miss u… I need u…
Even in my dreams I’m wit u..
I miss u… I need u…
Rewind back the time
I wanna kiss u again ma boy…
My heart aches
It’s too much to bear
And where are you? (I cried a lot)
Can’t live without you
Please come back to me
And stay with me

I cried a lot because of you (Yeah~)
I laughed a lot because of you (I laughed a lot~)
I believed in the love because of you (Oooh-Yeah~)
I’ve lost everything because of you (Because of you~)
I’m speechless, suffocating and lonely
The world without you has
Chewed out my heart
Stomped on my dignity
Torn apart my heart
So why did you leave me behind?

P.S. this Song by After School.. seldom a female's view of rejection eh..

P.S. I’m speechless, suffocating and lonely.. deep in my heart i believe

A friend's Confession

2010-06-03T23:48:00.007+08:00

Kkwae oraedwaesso,
It's been a while,

Nae mami jogumsshik byonhagi shijakhanji,
Since my heart began to change little by little,

Honjaso gwerowohanji.
Since I was aching inside.

Onjebutonga niga bulttaemada,
From some time ago, every time I see you cry,

Norul ullinun namjaga nomuna miwosso.
I began to hate the guy who made you tear.

Charari naega nol jikinun ge nauljido morundanun saengagi.
I began to think it might be better for me to be there for you.

Ijenun naega nol anajugo saranghaejugo shipdan saengagi durosso.
I began to think that now I want to be the one to hold you and love you.

Baby, ijenun naega wa.
Baby, come to me now.

And be my lady.

Nomuna oraetdongan jikyobwasso maropshi soso,
I stood by you for far too long, I stood by without saying a word,

Antakkaun gasumul sumgimyo.
Hiding this aching inside of me.

Chinguro, chinguro jinaeya handan iyuro,
As friends, to stay as friends,

Mokkaji chaollatdon gu gobaegul chamaya haesso.
I couldn't tell you how I feel but I had to keep it inside.

Hajiman ijenun gobaekhalkke;
But now I'll confess to you;

Norul saranghae.
I love you.

Nae sonul japgo nabakke opdamyo.
Hold my hand, say there's no one else like me.

Nagatun chingurul dunge jongmal kun chukbugiramyo.
Say that having a friend like is a true blessing.

Byonchi mallago marul hal ttaemada,
Every time you wanted to stay as friends,

Jogumsshik jarananun nae sarangul nullosso.
I had to suppress my love.

Charari naega nol jikinun ge nauljido morundanun saengagi.
I began to think it might be better for me to be there for you.

Jakkuman duro hajiman chamasso,
Kept thinking, kept trying to hold it in but,

Norul irhoborilkka duryowo, hajiman.
I'm afraid of losng you, but.

Baby, ijenun naege wa.
Baby, come to me now.

And be my lady.

Nomuna oraetdongan jikyobwasso maropshi soso,
I stood by you for far too long, I stood by without saying a word,

Antakkaun gasumul sumgimyo.
Hiding this aching inside of me.

Chinguro, chinguro jinaeya handan iyuro,
As friends, to stay as friends,

Mokkaji chaollatdon gu gobaegul chamaya haesso.
I couldn't tell you how I feel but I had to keep it inside.

Hajiman ijenun gobaekhalkke;
But now I'll confess to you;

Norul saranghae.
I love you.

p.s. Love this song from 2am.. Enjoy!!

p.s. I think I'm in Love! shh!! haha =D

Long Weeekend

2010-06-02T20:35:00.007+08:00

Enjoying my weekends now cause my weekdays seem to be rather boring. Not really bored, more like very routine-based. Will stuck routine for 3 more months, i think. Finding a new job soon, many told me to find perm, but i scared i cant cope. They say part time no difference from full time. So, asked me to try. Will think about it.

A happening graduation, honestly~~ All went back to normal after one week. Went my Dowager's place to take my grad photo with her.. find it troublesome for her to come SP. Imagine my parents are a little lost that day haha =D

Went to watch Shrek with Lilian, Eugene and Terence last wed. Ya, I know.. should have watched 3D haha. And will not choose a so far BACK seats. I realized so later. Very blurred recently.. Sorry Sorry.

Went out on Vesak Day, rushed back to do report.. Ended up watch SBS 2009 music festival instead. Come on, Who can resist.. haha SO ended up watched that. Found lots of nice songs from the festival but rather old le.. BUT nice k? Watch the 2008 music festival online last year. Knew the 2010 music festival is the Hollywood theme, march de but no time to watch..

Woke up super early on Saturday to use school comm cause lazy bring notebook. And my notebook heat up super fast, maybe have to buy a new on soon. Went shopping after all the studying, i think that's my plans for every Saturdays. Went to City square, eat at one Italian restaurant. Its cheap, have free flow of drinks and its a good place for chit-chatting. Its like Just Acia ba, i think. Shall we try that again someday haha =D

SJ coming to S'pore!! But i didnt buy the tickets. Lucky, I not very crazy over them.. otherwise sermons will come. But they celebrating Ryeowook some more.. ahhh!! Nevermind la haha =D But the phone is nice.. Samsung Galaxy S pretty nice, thought of getting Samsung Corby or Omnia Pro.. HAHA ya, I'm a Samsung fan haha =D Want another phone, maybe year end ba =D

Took 1/2 day leave for next week, cant be late mah.. MST u know. And she state she will start on time. Stats some more, need more brain juice. Must eat properly.. haha

Still searching for the Korean song i heard, dont know the song title is such a core.

Will watch my movies soon, as my holidays coming haha =D Free at night le haha=D And much more to do: Shopping, Sleeping, Hanging-out, ICE-CREAM SPREE haha =D

All the best for MST everyone!!

So wanna sing K next wed.. SP cheaper, i think Go SP GG? or Moberly??

I've Graduated!!

2010-05-20T22:37:00.003+08:00

Picture states a thousand words!! Simply to say: I've Graduated!!

Firstly, dont really wanna go for graduation cause have mixed feelings about it. I have not really graduated mah, as I still have my Adv. diploma going on.. Secondly, my parents going. Cause I dont really get my parents involved in school events, and so consider first time. Great, I went. Otherwise I will regret.

Grateful to my friends who help me take photos, take photos with me. Somehow, cant find my lecturers, wrong timing =( And lastly, thanks my dad. Great! he went..Why? He took the video of my whole course graduands. DBT ROCKS!! HAHA =D

No need to post photos here ba, cause all photos on FB. Honestly, that graduation feeling very odd. Its doesnt feel like graduating after 3 years, more like after a couple of seconds. When walk up the stage, pass the ticket, announce your name, take the scroll, photo-taken and walk down the stage.. That's all!! I've graduated!! Like all the 3 years of hard-work had just ended in seconds. Its once in a life-time.

Although I'm still studying in SP, I miss my friends, my lecturers, my TSOs, my lecture theaters, my labs. Just everything I used in the 3 years. Its not like the lecturers I have now are not nice, just a different feeling. I've grown up unknowingly.. Not talking about age here.

Always got the weird timing, start working before graduation ceremony, cant take too many leaves some-more.. Miss some of my friends graduation.. sob sob. And the funniest thing I ever had. Rushed to school just to take my LOA then rushed home. Super unlucky, train default. So i took bus home instead, at least not so stuffy. Then, traffic jam at Clarke Quay, not only that, waited 1/2 hr for another bus, ended i took another bus instead. Spent about 2 hours to reach home. LOL

Tmr TGIF.. YAY!!

Vision

2010-05-16T17:04:00.002+08:00

Now had a habit to get either My paper or Today to read while traveling to work. Found something interesting and dumbfounded with the news in it.

There are many hackers incidents in kindergartens in China, which is painstakingly devastating . Felt a fear when i hear the news. And i wondered myself, why harmed these innocents kids? They have just started to make choices, why killed them? Because they are vulnerable?

Are there really troubles that cannot be solved that people went into killing? Where do this influence come from? From the media? I doubt so.. People learnt from each other through the description of killings stated in the newspaper. What a way of learning? They should learn to live a better life. Stop hurting people, just because YOU wanted someone to know your pain. Don't worth it and its STUPID.

Talking about reading newspaper online, read on someone, Dr. Goh Keng Swee. I dont know who he was until i read more online. That's my fault for not reading more about politics and current affairs.

He's the one who involves in building up the modern Singapore.. COOL right. He's one of our prime architect. To later found out in the news and papers that he's the one who suggested building the Mandai Zoo, Bird park and many more, i think.

I think I should learn from him, brought up ideas, linked them together and made them into reality. I do not have the confidence to do, which is something that I was been trampled upon. I should believed myself, trust my decisions.

Believe in Myself

Lessons learnt

2010-05-11T22:42:00.002+08:00

Supposed to blog yesterday, but get in front of my desktop at 2300, hence too tired to do so.. FAQs for my current situation haha

FAQs [haha]:

What am I doing now??
Hmm.. I am currently working temp and study part time.

Where am I working at?
At city hall, near FUNAN

Where am I studying at?
Advanced diploma at SP

Can I manage?
Just started part work and study.. Not too sure yet =)

What have you learn?
Learning to communicate, building up my confidence, broadening my general knowledge.

What's my current situation?
Running tap (flu) and burning glaze (sore throat)

Honestly, it quite fun la. But for the past 2 days, I've been facing numbers for like almost the whole day. Working with numbers, studying numbers (stats and tables). So like having matrix when i reach home.

The advanced diploma practical are fun when performing, but analyzing rather hard. I have learned that before, so lucky me..

Met Eugene and Arif today for today, no school today but went there to get my reserved items. U see I so guai... LOL Heard TK waited but he left after that. Anyway, thanks haha =D I think he dont wanna be in a crowded train, thats why haha =D

Honestly, do enjoy your school life, why? Where everything are cheaper, no matter traveling, food or even buying apparels... Some are way cheaper than Adult prices now haha =D But lucky me, I can eat student meals at some restaurants. hehe

Gotta rest now.. Bad flu

Nobody

2010-05-06T08:42:00.004+08:00

Has been a fan for "A Million Stars" or commonly known “超级星光大道”. Has watched the show since the first till now, like how people watched American Idol haha =D Had been watching it since the Yoga batch and now haha =D

Everyone knows Nobody by Wonder girls right? They have English and Chinese version already, and maybe more coming up, who knows? haha =D

If you are watching 超级星光大道 6 now, you will know the 三帅 in the contestants list. They have edited the Nobody Chinese version. Wanna hear?

How do you find it? Enjoy =D

Hope

2010-05-05T09:33:00.006+08:00

Had went for interviews, signed up for whatsoever jobs that I think i can do, and finally there's a reply!! A temp job for 4 months.. Where? Somewhere near Funan IT mall. Admin Job, hope I am ok with it. $6/hr starting next Monday. so ya -.- and need to wear Office wear so =.=

While working, getting used to study and work part time then will get a perm job.. What I wanna work as? I have no idea, and really have to brush up on my skills- academic and technical. Thus, dont really want to be a lab tech as yet.

Had my first food tech prac yesterday, Its fun.. As in you can eat in the prac, which what you are supposed to do. Maybe its rather obvious, thats how i feel. Luckily, I'm not the only fresh grad in the class, there's about other 3 of us. All 4 of us looking for jobs =)

Some of my elementary school friends are married, met them on streets then i know. Felt old suddenly LOL But they didnt invite me =(

"Keep moving forward, dont look back"

Language barrier??

2010-04-29T15:29:00.003+08:00

Had went for two interviews this week, got hope this time i think. Went for govt jobs, one in the hospital and the other one doing statistics. Not sure which one I will get, however wanted to get the statistics one. Not sure why, but like that ba. Maybe feel more comfortable there, working with numbers, coding etc. But the statistics one is temp job so maybe till september or Jan 2011. Another thing, govt jobs are rather stable.

Anyway, I have not worked before so I do not know I can balanced both work and study. Hence, temp job seem to be a better choice. Somehow, made a friend there cause we went through the same procedures getting there and met at the security there. So, haha =D

Language barrier? Why? cause I have to speak dialects for both jobs. If u know me well, u should know my dialects are CMI, even I understand both. Thanks to my Empress Dowager and CEO that they speak dialects in between sentences hence I know what it means, but my speech really CMI. p.s My canto is somehow better than Hokkien. So maybe my homework for my job would be brushing up my dialects, haha =D

Somehow wanna the statistics job may also due to the liking for statistics, even though its not really what i learn in school. But to be in statistics industry, must at least have a degree for what i know. And I cant apply for maths degree, only thing i can go for most probably is bioinformatics at NTU, part time degree. So will be doing clinical trial after that.

Realise no point studying so much, as you not very sure what they are for. Are most sure that what they study are what they are interested in? Maybe some are, but for me, I not really sure. If I really like the job, most probably will work towards that field even though its not the field i study.. May go for accountancy or business, no one really knows oe even health science..

Just keep looking forward, this is what i believe.

Will be in a dilema if I got both and not sure which to choose. But no high hopes for that haha

Under-estimate

2010-04-27T13:55:00.001+08:00

Had a great weekend last week, went for buffet at Tung Lok at East Coast. The food there is nice, honestly, next time we should go there haha =D But somehow I've been gulping food down without savoring the food like i do last time. Somehow, I've lost the sense of taste on my taste-bud.But mood plays a part, chili cannot avoid that, hence I should avoid eating chili. But due to the environment, I have to endure the spiciness.

Went to get my Grad robe after that, its raining there.. GREAT!! LOL Unexpectedly, I wore S, cant believe myself too, thought I would be wearing M or something.. LOL So wanna to go City Square, so took a cab due to the rain. Its amazing to see the change in S'pore weather within streets. The cab just dashed across one highway, a sudden change occurred from a thunderstorm to a sunny day.. Pretty shocking.. Usually see rain at one window and not at the other side in my house but not between streets. So ya, haha

Went for the interview yesterday, pretty fun la. Cause they are nice. Somehow I do not have questions to ask when I'm in the interview and always have questions after that. Stupid me!! But what to do? I know they hold trainings for new-comers. Misinterpret one of the software they ask, blame the abbreviations, too many of them in science. Or maybe I'm nervous. Stated to wait for 1 week notice..

Somehow didnt mention anything about pay, and i do not dare to voice out. Who would dare to voice out in interviews, rather odd, and learnt not to ask that. Its my first interview for the job even though I'm short-listed. My GPA not that great and competition with the health science students, may not be that easy ba.

Anyway, no one knows what will happen in the future. May take more courses after that. Friends stated I should take nutrition instead of food tech. But I dont care less, no one knows what will happen after that.. So maybe something interesting awaits me..

Should I take statistics? If I can, I can switch department if possible..

Do hope for the best to come =D

End of week 1

2010-04-23T08:59:00.002+08:00

End of my week 1:

Had went for interviews and not much results for a moment, may come by soon i think. Still thinking what i really want. I have weaknesses too, who don't lol. I am a firm person but I am not focused enough. I tend to shift my thoughts by and by and not sure what i want to do.

I have wanted to do something regarding statistics and a clinical trial offer came by which is something i wanna do.. But not sure how long i have to take. I have an interview today and next Monday. Today's for a position as a clinic assistant, Monday, for a position as a PSA, wonder which department I will be, no A&E will do haha =)

Also ended my first week of lessons, finally got my timetable, lots of troubles caused to the lecturers. Sorry for that, and I became somewhat 'famous' for that. Not a very good start right haiz.

My lessons on Mon , Tue and Thur from 1830 to 2130 at T2. Have practical for some of the lessons. Each module per day, so 3 modules per sem. These 3 modules are examinable, so have to take leave no matter what, otherwise consider fail.

Find myself foreign to the course, maybe have not done those before, but I not the only one, so pretty ok. Take the lessons with the year 2 too. And only 1 class about 30 people in total, very small right..

Had a small welcome party yesterday night, Subway and Mac's coffee and tea. I didnt take them, cause i ate dinner. Losing appetite recently, is it good haha =D But my sis is pretty funny, 'Got subway why you don't want'. I like subway la, so it kinda odd for me not to take. =)

Having my interview soon today, all the best for myself

Enjoy yourself too, Yr3s =D

Happening Monday

2010-04-20T08:24:00.002+08:00

A rather stress day for me, cause all are done half-way or another.. And I'm not really sure what I want. Found a job that I want but not confident enough to meet their requirement.

Had my interview yesterday, Monday, a formal interview hence considered my first interview. My previous interview are kinda simpler. I gotta do tests for this one, and not sure if I can get it, but I will put my best to it so I wont regret ba =)

Maybe after this job, I can proclaimed that I do not have good time management skills, I dont think I can give in to my job scope as what I think I can. I still wanna focus on my studies. Its my first job so I'm not very sure myself either.

Had my first evening class yesterday, somehow got myself 'famous' due to the application problem. And I'm maybe the only biotech yr 1, so ya.. haha =) Its a fun experience, see views from working people. Got a clearer view on what I want.

Thought I can sleep in the train, but i cant. Thought it will be very quiet at 1030, the time i reach home, but rather not. Quite crowded, hence kinda relieved.

Long time didnt contact my friends, and sushi(Dawn) contacted me yesterday, happy. She's changing her line hence cant contact her for 3 days =( Xing and Naz working le, not sure what's steph doing.. Will find a day to meet them. Not sure if I can go for my grad ceremony..

Learn marketing yesterday, will be learning food development today. Will be having my second interview today too..

Jiayou to myself =D

Fruitful trip

2010-04-14T14:41:00.002+08:00

Friday:
Wanna to Just Acia for dinner with the Aqua peeps, the food there is not that bad.. But ain't vegetarian as what they stated for some dishes. Better asked before ordering =) What's best there is free flow of Ice Cream and drinks.. An Ice-cream lover like me, myself don't really mind it.. Esp. coconut flavoured ice-cream =D

Saturday:
Went for a shopping spree, went 4 places- Orchard, Clarke Quay, Bugis, Ang Mo Kio and Tampines.. 5 places actually, my bad. Brought a food regarding nutrition and wellness for my module, hope it helps.. Anyway, even its doesn't help..I also don't care less, the book is useful although ex la -$88.24

Went to a temple near Clarke Quay, bought their bao-$2 but very big.. bigger than my palm.. should have compared it with my face.. (maybe same size or 2/3 of my face haha) Don't feel shocked, cause I can't finish the bao at one go. Bought a bag at Bugis Village, Ink 30% discount.. so bought the bag at $38 dollars i think, $49 usual price i think.. never mind that.

Went Tampines 1 for dinner, bought their No.1 chendol-$2.50 See so many people buying, one after another... Out of curiosity, we bought 1, shared by 3 people.. haha And it taste great.. Really Nice haha =D

Tuesday aka yesterday:
Went to the zoo yesterday, have a feeling that someone will scold me haha =) But he don't know my blog add.. so won't so ba.. We took a train, alight at Marsiling then took a cab. About a 10 mins taxi trip

Was fun in the zoo, bought a $23 admission ticket for the unlimited tram ride- sat 2 rides so should be ok ba =) Also sat the horse carriage, went to play the kids rainforest world.. play in the playground with my baby grace.. Its fun though..

Moir the photographer of the day, took 122 photos for the trip.. Don't think my skills is that bad ba. Didnt upload all on the web, to see my photography skills, click here. Tell me how is it k? haha

Coming week:
Evening lessons starting soon, not long just next week. Timetable not out yet, so rather sian.. thinking if I should make a call to ask? Never mind, thinking about it. Going to the Pixar exhibit at Science center on Sat, but no Photography allowed... =(

Really broke soon.. Waiting for my job reply.. Most probably working in May.. Wish me luck =D

Not an April's Fool Afterall

2010-04-01T22:10:00.002+08:00

Didnt got fooled today, and amazed today that I've finally gotten my AFT application. But somehow for others its expected, but I'm quite worried myself. Honestly, this application is rather late.. unexpected.

Cleared and cleaned my documents today, and I've realize that I'm able to buy a new notebook... Haha.. Should I get a mac book. But I may not be able to buy one too.. So gotta see my luck.

Lessons starting on April 19, same as the full time curriculum, but I'm studying in the evenings, end at 10. LATE!! Timetable coming out one week before that.. Maybe I've made a smart choice in choosing the same institution, so does save some troubles for myself.

Waiting for my job applications, went for interviews but no news yet. Not sure what will happen next? I believe there's always a way out.. Holidays...

What I believe: An exit of the past is an entrance of a new beginning.

Madness

2010-03-30T13:50:00.005+08:00

If u see my blog title, you would sense how i feel now.. Mad but do i really hold grudges, I'm not very sure myself.

Went out with my mum earlier today, and pushing a pram with baby Grace in it, I'm not very sure what's really happen.. Maybe not me, but us, not really sure what had happen but suddenly this old man in his 50s started to reprimand us stated that we didn't apologize for hitting him or something. But from i remember, there's a huge crowd there.. so who actually did it, no one knows.. End up, we're not bothered and just walked off. And he still went on and on..

But this is not the first time, had many times like such.. These men like using us to vent their anger. Cause they know we, ladies wont make such a huge fuss in the public and there's no need to.

I do not really hold grudges but i do have some bad impression in man. They are also labeled as 'gentleman' but they do not preach what they seem to be. Guys, don't be mad, i didn't mean all guys are like that..

Its a world of equality now, but Asians and even Caucasians i supposed so, still set the line between man and woman. Its just how wide/narrow the boundary is.. Nobody knows. But i believe now is not all a equality side, more on the fairness part

Life is unfair, everyone knows that. But no one wants to be framed and there's came law and order. Everyone wants a fair judgment, but i believe that we can do it in a peaceful manner, that do not kill lives or damage one's health.

We had hold hands to help Mother Earth during Earth hour last sat, 27 Mar. Why not hold hands to hold a single agreement or a simple motive in keeping the world in peace with no war? But I have heard one's saying from 2012, 'only without humanity, we would not have war..' which is rather true. Cause all man had lose emotions and thoughts, just live for the sake of living and start to give in. I think that's what he means.

I don't know myself well, so when some people stated they know me well, i was pretty shocked. I don't portray much of myself out to people.. Everyone keeps saying' u must first love yourself before someone likes u'.. that's rather true. And i don't really like myself. I want my life to be better, to live the way i want to be. I do not want to be kept in the same spot, same location. I want to move on.

Am I holding grudges or just being mad?

Another step ahead

2010-03-29T16:28:00.004+08:00

Had changed a new blogskin, a new beginning.. lol. Just wanna change something new. I have 2 blogs actually- one black and the other white blogskin... Dark & Light? Not a coincidence, just wanna keep my pessimistic and unhappiness side to myself. The optimistic side will be shared with everyone.. Shared happiness.. LOL

Read lots of books during the holidays, as in now.. haha.. Learn lots from it. Novels, some with meanings,some without.. Love the quote i found today online.
"Life is either a daring adventure or nothing" by Helen Keller.

I should be daring enough to enjoy my life adventure... instead of hiding myself in the dark corner. I should pursue what i want to achieve.

Set my focus and i'll know where i stand.

Honestly, how u find this new blogskin? haha =)

credits of pics to: Adventure postcards

One step forward

2010-03-28T19:57:00.004+08:00

hehe maybe i'm a little slow but i have completed my diploma le. YAY!! ML stated not considered graduation unless we go for the grad ceremony. Seen the date, on 18 May 2010 at SP Convention center 1400.. Who wanna come? haha =)

Felt very happy that i am able to overcome my fear.. the IBS.. went to the crematorium yesterday. Woke up at 4 plus am and set off at 530.. super early and tired after that. Slept for a super long time.. haha

Had my toilet door changed, imagine the door is there for 30plus 40 years le ba.. And can used till now.. Honestly, my house got lots of antiques furnitures haha.. Mostly used for more than 10 years de.. some same age or older than me de.. We lived in the apartment when i'm 1 or 2.. so, u know how old le right? Maths quiz haha

Doc say i can drink tea.. but not green tea why? But tea as in the tea leaves kind.. i love tea, drank lots and many types of tea, but not oolong tea. Now, i've tried.. very nice. not as bitter as i thought. Wanna buy flower tea, unless some one wanna share with me then i buy. Not cheap, that's why!! haha

My sis like the preserved mango i bought from taka, she say very fresh haha =) So,we buying more soon.. So wanna watch movie.. Who wanna watch? - How to train your dragon?

Anyway, i got lots of things i wanna do:
1. Watch movie - Dragon & Clash of the titans and more-> roughly $14++
2. Go National museum of Singapore- Mummy exhibit-> FREE!! =D
3. Science Center- Pixar Exhibit-> $16
4. Go eat some buffet
5. Shopping

So, u see.. I need to work mah.. haha.. And i start school on April 16.. Fast hor haha.. Anyway, Cya soon SP.. =)

windflower

2010-03-20T21:23:00.002+08:00

Love this song, cry when i hear it... got two versions (by yesong or IU) Not sure which its better? but i prefer yesong one..

what it means? lyrics below:
ye song / iu - baramggoc (wind flower)
[queen seon duk ost]

-- KOREAN --
ihdaeroh
dolaseolgeomyeon
sarajilgeomyeon
pieonaji anaseo

ihreokgeh
barabomyeonseo sumi makhimyeon
nuneul gameunchae sal ado joeulgga

boji anado boyeoseo
deutji anado deulyeoseo
geudae sumgyeoleh dasi sal anan baramggotcheoreom

gago sifeodo motganeun
an goh sifeodo motanneun
geudae songgeutih naemameh daeuhni

gin gin bamih jinagoh namyeon algga
nunmul sokeh utgoh ihtneun sarangeul

jabgoh sifeodo motjabneun
gagoh sifeodo motganeun
geudae maheumeh dasi sal-anan baramggotcheoreom

boji anado boyeoseo
deutji anado deulyeoseo
barameh sillyeo heuteohjeo nallimyeo
geudae maheumeh heuteohjeo nallimyeo

-- ENGLISH --
If like this
I turned my back on
I disappeared
I wouldn't come into bloom

If like this
I gave a gasp while seeing you
It might be good to live with closing my eyes

Even I don't see you, I'm saw you
Even I don't hear you, I'm heard you
Like a wind flower which revived by your breathing

I wish to reach you, but I can't
I wish to hug you, but I can't
Your fingertips reach my heart

Will you know, after long long night?
The love smiling in tears

I wish to catch you, but I can't
I wish to reach you, but I can't
Like a wind flower which revived in your heart

Even I don't see you, I'm saw you
Even I don't hear you, I'm heard you
Getting scattered in the wind
Getting scattered into your heart

credits for lyrics to: lee

Enjoy =D

Holidays

2010-03-19T16:33:00.004+08:00

Sent lots of resume and lost count of how many i have sent. Well, dont think so much & not probing it.. I should enjoy my holidays..

Before i continue.. just wanna say: "KOREAN DRAMA ROCKS!!!"

What've i been watching.. Not the latest one.. but the ones showing in 2009.. Watching two now..

1.

Queen Seon Deok [善德女皇]

Historical story, i think.. can find her name on the history on the internet. If you watch Dae Jang Geum [大長今], you will like this. These both are directed from the same director.

2.

You're beautiful [原来是美男啊]

Introduced by my friends.. considered as idol drama ba.. Very nice!! Quite funny too. Still watching haha =D

Love their OSTs, very nice.. Got lots more songs from them, just choose a few (actually only 2), place on my playlist. Enjoy my holidays now, before I have to start work at a short notice.

Enjoy =)

Flowers

2010-03-16T20:23:00.004+08:00

Sent my resume yesterday, can't wait for replies. I sent lots , not very much lot but around 6-8. Haha. How i wish to work? $$

I came across some birthday flowers thingy, and went to read. Oh yeah, i love flowers but i didnt receive any yet.. but i gave them to people.. Teachers, Parents and my Empress Dowager. We love flowers, i think its in the blood haha =) And did i forget to say, my childhood dream is to be a florist.. better than someone, a taxi-driver haha =)

I went online to see what's my birthday flower.. Its Mimosa.. AKA Sensitive plant or humble plant. Flower meaning? Sensitive.. No wonder i so sensitive. LOL

Anyway, if u're curious.. check this site
Birthday flowers
Flower meaning I
Flower meanings II (if u cant find your flower in the above site)

March 14 just ended, know what's day is it? White Valentine's day.. So u all know what to do le right? haha =) Anyway, its not much held in S'pore.. Mostly in Japan and S.Korea. Anyway, if you're not sure what's so special about it- an answer day after valentine's day, Feb 14.

Some of my friends celebrate together, have some short lunch-white lunch, everything white- white chocolates, white tulips etc. haha =D Best part, we do ourselves haha. Now, no more le, they have their own ___ to entertain.. haha =)

So malu as to realise that i get my calendar of dates mixed up.. haiz

p.s. I want to work
happy white valentine to you, Gareth..

After plans

2010-03-13T21:25:00.003+08:00

My first post in March.. haha =)

I have somehow graduated on March 4th 2010.. and how my exams goes? Nah.. Old story, wont say haha=) Here comes my long-lasting holidays.. Lots of things i want to do, hang-out, look for jobs, hang-out, look for workshop, hang-out.. get it?

Went to Seoul Gardens with the Aqua peeps, and these peeps somewhat saw my large appetite. Went out with my sis the day after, another buffet- sushi buffet. Supposed to go out the next day, change of plans... Sick..Ate too much, maybe..

Went back to school the next week, found out i have to help my juniors.. Was both shocked and excited and hurried to do the poster for YSS. Went for Interviews, gained the experience of interviews.. didn't manage to get the job and its not what i really wanted- Child Care.. Should have read the AD properly..

Here comes YSS (young scientists symposium) ystd held at science center, wore formal and heels. Unlike me sia.. Took photos, lazy to upload, maybe will post up the photos some time later.. Its fun, met some friends from other polys. But cant find my colleges, heard they left le.. sob sob =(

Went Toy museum again today with the Aqua peeps and someone super late la. Love Melvin Burgess, first book i read is Junk. Now reading the third book (not in serial, just in topic manner)- Sara's Face.. Maybe I'm eager to finish it, so I'm bringing it everywhere today, or even reading everywhere today. So not the usual me sia.

Talking about Toy museum, they have great seats.. We almost dozed off at L3 (the bear level) Love the sofa.. Order Singapore Sling tea, supposed to have no alcohol de but it does. Lucky Benji drank it.. But he knock out for 4 hours. Apologize for that.. sorry sorry..

Very tired these few days, will rushed my resume. Wish me luck to get my job

More holidays to come, with shocking happenings and excitements haha =D

I'll have to find a away to do it

2010-02-20T07:13:00.002+08:00

Officially, 19 Feb 2010 is my last day of school. Other classes took photos tgt, went out tgt, have a class moment. But my class dont =( Nevermind ba.. haha=) Anyway lots of my friends stated my class too competitive. So, after exam ba.

Wedding dress by Taeyoung.. Recommended by Steffi when i visited Empress Dowager at CNY.. We r K-pop fans people haha=) Had fun during CNY, like an excursion around S'pore cause my relatives lived everywhere. Saw some of my friends along the way but didn't really have a chance to say hi or dont want to. Dont have time to study cause the environment don't allow to.. But sad about it? Not my style, just strive harder.

Man are selfish.. They want things their ways. But I'm also like that.. so i cant say much haha=D But don't you think everyone should have their own say and choices for work. That's what we are made to be, to decide?

Don't really have the mood to study.. Want to but very stressed. My over-eating habits are back again.. =( Should have control myself.. Now, my health problems are back due to over-eating.. The cycle went on.. Will have stop it.. Since i know the problem, will find a way to stop it.

I can stand up myself now, thanks for helping me everytime. But i gotta learn to stand up on my own.. Thanks =D Love you Gareth

Happy CNY & Valentine's Day

2010-02-15T22:19:00.002+08:00

Went back to school on Saturday, go complete the YSS poster.. thanks Steph for doing it up.. NICE!! But problems with applying for it..so..hehe Then went TB plaza get the stuffs my mum needs.. packed sia.. but honestly, Bedok worst.. WEnt shopped around. go home put up the decor then went down to my headquarters for reunion dinner.

First day of CNY.. First time, set off at 0930.. the earliest ever. The longest ever too.. Went houses to houses.. haha Dad tried to settle everything so we can study for exams, thanks DAD!! =D Booked a 13-seater bus for travelling, dozing off.. slept in the bus.. then went sms-ing hehe =D

Today went Empress Dowager place for YuSheng.. the Korean style de.. Unique haha.. Not bad thou.. Buffet and play around..

Exams coming up, will chiong for it.. Last sem liao.. Jiayou!! =D

Lastly, HAppy CNY =D

My Last Poly Days BooHoo!! =(

2010-02-12T21:29:00.004+08:00

Honestly Yesterday, 11 Feb 2010 is considered my last poly day, the time we have class together.. play along together.. Didnt take photos.. Wasted!! But luckily took lots of PTN photos.

Quite happening on wed 10 Feb 2010, i have 1 bioinfo test, i OC ppt [individual] and 1 call interview for my advanced diploma. Bryan T and Jessica G. danced that day, nice and funny.. Really courageous to dance in front of all of us before A.Koh comes.. Or she's already there, just hide behind somewhere.. Sorry ah cher, we stressed ah!! haha

The call interview is unexpected de.. I received this call: 'R u Lisa?' I am like yes.. then He replied I'm Mr. Teng from SP.. My mind was like oh ok, but i dont have a lecturer called Mr Teng.. HAHA!! Then realize its a call interview.. But only 1 question asked, 'R u sure you want to take the advanced diploma?' So i go on and on.. Happy to hear him say they are doing the admin stuffs.. Means i got it.. Wohoo

Mc today.. 12 Feb 2010, Xavier's bdae today.. Juz remember!! Sorry! On MC today, =( anyway i no school today so haha. Gotta rest, CNY's coming in 2 days.. Will stay up a whole night tmr if i can.. Rush my assignments, dont owe it till CNY haha..

Exam's schedule out le: My last Exam Schedule of my diploma days

Let's meet out someday ok.. Let's celebrate!! =D Shall we?

A stay at home weekend & more things popping!!

2010-02-08T19:44:00.002+08:00

Saturday, 6 Feb 2010
Had a stayed at home Saturday cause overslept, so intend to study at home. But nah.. Hard!! Cause got to get ready for CNY.. Shopping for goodies and more. The rice pail spoilt, so also got to buy a new one.. 20 over years liao.. Old stuffs are the best =D!! Comm very lag on Saturday, cant really used to do my work.. Lots of assignments. Thanks the Chers for extending the datelines, but if most do so.. still have lots cramping together. Hope i can finish soon. OC speech on wednesday, i want my A.. This is the only A i can get for this sem i guess.. haha=D

Sunday, 7 Feb 2010
After my comm lagged on Saturday, now its better.. Not so lagged liao. Maybe too rush, press too many buttons at one go.. i suppose. Rush the assignment. And then my toilet pipe spoilt..-.-'' New Year lah.. Everything must be brand new. Lucky my uncle came and fixed.. thanks.

Monday, 8 Feb 2010
Heard from Supervisor WBS that we got nominate for the Young Scientists' Symposium @ Science center. Cool =D At least i got something to do during vacation besides finding jobs and have fun.. A great experience earned.. hehex

ICAs these few weeks like not very good. Gotto brush up.. Too many things le.. Very rush. JIAYOU!! CNY coming but not much mood.. Smile ppl =D

Hard to express myself

2010-02-06T10:48:00.003+08:00

Hard to express myself? Communication problem mah? Got generation gap? I'm not that old ba haha =)

Had my ACC and Genetech this week.. Lots coming up this coming week before new year.. CNY gifts mah? haha=) All stated in the column. Had Plant biotech and Bioinfo test this coming work.. Brain cells dead le ba.. So many things to remember.. =(

Nothing much to say.. But so want to watch movies. Sang K with my sis at moberly yesterday. Had come to a conclusion- I cant rap, cant sing slow, sentimental songs, cant sing eng songs -.-''. Only for fast songs and a little rock songs ba..

Dare to take the bet, cause wanted to do so too. what's wrongs with me? WRONG strategy!! CHANGE PLAN !! PLAN B coming..

Thankful

2010-01-31T13:32:00.003+08:00

Thursday, 28 Jan 2010

Really happy when LYC & WBS decided to postpone Gene tech ICA 2.. Cause lots to study and had not finish them.. Due to the interview session on Wed, me the interviewer.. But didnt do much la.. HAHA. After the whole lesson, have another trial FYP ppt with WBS, my supervisor. Too nervous, miss out one slide.. HE didnt notice.. Lucky me!! But was commented that i too nervous.. I am, maybe bcoz didnt practice enough before seeing him.. And my voice affected.. WBS asked me take drugs.

Hence after that go practice at the clubhouse. Realise i rely too much on my notes.. Hence throw my notes aside and practice.. It works. =)

Lost my voice at night.. HELP!! So decide not to talk anymore.. Really took 'Drugs' to cure it..

Friday, 29 Jan 2010

This day arrived, my FYP ppt day. Nervous sia. Lesson at 11, only 1 hr.. Went early and practice to calm myself down. My voice came back a little. Did 3 practices before lesson starts. Lilian stated the 1st try is the best.

Then, WXY's class came in.. Thanks Gaaya, Shermin, Karen and Isaac for telling me not to be nervous.. My nervousness issue got me popular. HAAH =)After lesson, changed to formal then practice again in the lab..

At 1610, the time arrives, my FYP ppt starts. Was really nervous waiting outside.. Seriously, but was rather calm when i went in.. Like HECK, put all my best efforts- dont make my 1 year effort into waste. But my cheeks are red, Lilian called me 'tomato'.. Its already like tat in the rest room and before the ppt.

After that at 1640.. MY offical ANNOUNCEMENT: FYP IS FINALLY OVER!! WOOHOO!!! =D

Saturday, 30 Jan 2010

Went to school study a little while then went suntec for the NTU talk. Met Yinzhi, Daniel, Yaya etc. Went for the MOE/NIE talk with Karen, Lydia and Lilian. Dismissed le, going the biological science talk, Then saw my sec school friends- Qiuling, Diane, Lihong.. and here's come derek and his girl.. Woo!! haha=) While listening, saw Naz and Athina. Greet them then leave..

3 plus 4 le, we super hungry.. Went to eat Seoul garden at Taka.. Didnt really eat much la, but fun.. =) THen shop ard Orachrd then go home..

So no mood to study tests.. Like graduate le LOL But got to be thankful for what they have given me.. Really appreciate it. =)

Sorry Sorry Answer

2010-01-29T19:23:00.002+08:00

Some asked for the eng sub for Sorry Sorry Answer!!

Found it!!

For better viewing, view link

Enjoy =D

Feel so immatured

2010-01-26T21:25:00.004+08:00

Felt so immatured for the incidents yesterday. Not sure if its because of stress or what. Somehow have them well-figured out, i dont feel so uncertain anymore.

Apologise to the CCA pple due to my uncertainty that cause a big Hoo-ha.. Sorry..

我不会再看你的脸色生活，因为受够了。

Why do I have to endure? To let u trace me under your nose. I should made my own decisions ain't I? U're not the only one stressed, everyone is..

I dont owe you anything, i supposed.

Dont expect too much from me

2010-01-25T21:57:00.002+08:00

Not too sure if I cant take jokes or what.. Juz sick and tired of it, as in my school life. Not very approachable now cause every word you say now sound like the final say.. If that's so, i shouldnt have say anything. If you already have an idea in your mind, then dont ask me for help ba. Cause WILL worsen the situation. Ended up I'm not helping and being 'Labeled' as bossy instead. I think there is one who is very 'helpful' maybe u can ask for his/her help...

I'm very tired, stressed up i think.. Cause too much stuffs loaded on my head and more to come. I'm not the only one, i know. But I am not the capable one to handle them. If you dont trust my capabilities, you should not assigned me this task to do, isnt it? Why bother to do double work, and ask someone else instead?

I dont have friends (someone to talk to), but Foes? I'm not too sure. I look like grumpy like what people stated. I'm not grumbling juz wanna escape this place soon. Just cant take it, Just too packed. Wanna run away from it.

I cant see the light in front of me, suffering from depression now. And I'm so calm to say that, dont seem to be true. Yes, i thought so too.

Just hope i dont push my FYP partners down, they are wonderful people. For my CCA friends, i dont think i'm suitable to help, not in the right now.. Have the 'DONT COME NEAR ME' sign on my head. Seem to give too many chim things, if there's easier stuffs, i think you settle it ba. Anyway, u made the best decisions, aint it?

People busy like I am, i know. So, shouldnt have let it out.. Why bother? But where can i vent it at? Juz glad that nobody reads my blog as and when they read others. So, I'm free aint I?

I should have face the reality sometimes.. Only people who have will say they have no friends, dont seem to be true.. Cause Reality will come eventually. I dont have friends just working partners. Our Convo will always either end in a sour manner or not long at all. Just nothing to talk about, seriously..

I'm not emo-ing, just felt sick and tired. With my body burning but no fever, so what's my condition? I'm not even sure. Aiming for anything? I'm not too sure. Just maybe not working hard enough..

p.s. I'm not a nice person, ain't I? Just dont expect too much from me

Looking Forward Not Back..

2010-01-23T20:55:00.003+08:00

Before I blog.. Not sure if you heard this before..

Sorry Sorry-Answer (Sorry Sorry R&B version)

How is it? I'm not used to this version.. But not bad.. Tell me your views =)
For better viewing, this is the link

And now i blog haha=)

I think i'm not the only Yr3 who think about holidays now, as i only have about 6 weeks left in school.. Fast sia.. Initially, we (the class) planned to go Annual D&D, all change mind le, coz not wanna go.. Shirlyn stated booked chalet bungalow, arena de.. Yes, the H1N1 quarantine area haha=) But that's the plan.. Not sure yet=)

So wanna plan some outing after i graduate with the Aqua pple, my classmates, my cliques.. Before we really go our sepearate ways and not meeting up that often.. Like what my sec school friend stated, let's keep in contact, but that seldom happens haha=) Not to all, but on me haha=)

Important dates coming up, my FYP ppt next friday.. Hope i dont go.. U know la haha=)

今晚你想念的人是不是我

2010-01-17T23:21:00.004+08:00

Looking for this song for some time.. Song from drama: 牽牛花開的日子...

今晚你想念的人是不是我 by A-Lin

是你找到了我在我的心中刻下了你的承諾難道你不遵守
思念糾纏著我閉上眼我就忘了恨你的理由想起那些溫柔
你為什麼放開我的雙手
我試著體會生命充滿各種苦衷
我在黑暗之中尋找幸福的下落
等待原來那顆流星劃過我天空
總要在說完再見以後才開始明白愛多濃
今晚你想念的人是不是我

因為絕望所以學會祈求
我也不想讓心痛對我欲取欲求
我在黑暗之中尋找幸福的下落
等待原來那顆流星劃過我天空
總要在說完再見以後才開始明白愛多濃
今晚你想念的人是不是我
想要愛到最後的最後
想要和你再一次牽手
除非我背叛我的靈魂
除非我可以假裝快樂
除非你忍心放我一個人難過

我在黑暗之中尋找幸福的下落
等待原來那顆流星劃過天空
一無所有我的天空
總要在說完再見以後才開始明白愛多濃
今晚你想念的人是不是我
我在黑暗之中尋找幸福的下落
等待原來那顆流星劃過天空
等你回頭....no...no....no...
總要在說完再見以後才開始明白愛多濃
今晚你想念的人是不是我

我想念的人會不會懂....

Remember the magic

2010-01-11T20:35:00.001+08:00

this is the song that i will use to remind myself and keep myself forward looking.

Remember the Magic by Brian Mcknight

Can you remember
Back to a simpler time
Back to the watercolor days
That still run through your mind

Oh, I remember just my old friend and me
Runnin' through an open field
The way it used to be

The feeling that our hearts could just take wings
We could live out all our dreams
The journey there was never far away

But like a dream come true
That's still inside of you
The secret of tomorrow is
To live your dreams today

Remember the night
Remember the feeling
Remember the magic
In our lives

You opened up my eyes
To a new world revealing
So remember the magic
Just remember the magic
One more time
Oh, remember

Do you remember
The way it used to feel
When love was only make-believe
And fairy tales were real

Oh, I remember
You were with me once again
Free to live our fantasies
It never has to end

The feeling that our hearts would just take wings
We could live a world of dreams
Together we would sail against the wind
And now I know where to begin
How to find it all again
From now until forever

Remember the time
Remember the feeling
Remember the magic
In your eyes

You opened up my eyes
And you gave life new meaning
So remember that feeling
Just remember the magic
One more time
One more time
Remember the magic

FYP week and more to go...

2010-01-10T20:19:00.002+08:00

Yes, the 1st week of school is FYP report week. Cause got to submit FYP report by tmr, 11-01-10 by 1700 at the TSO office, Level 5 T11A.

Was rushing like mad, sleepless nights or not sleepless nights spending late nights. FIrst time very late ba, sleep at 1 plus 2 am and got to wake up at 5.30am. HAHA. Kept calling my friends to clarify this and that. Keep sms-ing, my phone bills, 'ARGH'!!

Open house and SPinnovx didnt go, very sad le. But no time la.. Even got time, dont wanna pple see my sian face. See i so considerate LOL. No la!! Dont wanna bring 'uptight aura' around. See them having a great time.. COOL!!

Went Queensway shopping center last fri to get Lilian's FYP report printed. Now today, my turn. Luckily its open. Folder + Report + Binding + CD-ROM = $30.. Cheap mah? I dont know lei. But ok la.. Next time will continue to print my stuffs there.

Went lots of places to get my stuffs, New yR stuffs too!!

Handing in report tmr, left FYP presentation!!

GOt to JIAYOU!! Lots of assignments coming up..

A WeIrD LaDy

2010-01-07T10:22:00.001+08:00

Ystd at 11 plus pm to 12 plus am, this weird lady press my house doorbell as if there's no tmr. And give us a 'Morning Call'. AND ask us if Anyone called JO-ANNE LIVES here?

Dad going overseas today, morning flight. Had a tired day before, slept at 1a and this lady gives me this wake-up call.

Really Pissed off!!

First Day of School

2010-01-04T22:59:00.003+08:00

Very excited ystd that i cant slp b4 school. Dont know why acting like some primary school kid haha=). Overslept in the morning but not late, going school to print assignments

Board an empty train but pretty slow, realised the train b4 jammed LOL. then someone faint in the train somemore at Tanjong Pagar, so ya u know.. Sian already, late le..

Then rushed to lib get my stuffs printed. Lucky the printer didnt play tricks which it usually does. So, got it printed and went for Lesson.

Cher stated will end us early, then ended end on time lor. HE still thinks he let us leave early somemore. Not sure if its new year break or something, he seemed to be moody.

Karen.C laughing at my hair, serious!! Its the TOOTEST Hair i ever had. How i wish it will grow faster. Intending to wear a hat/cap to get away from attention, but realises it worked otherwise, so 4get it.

Show Supervisor our report, learnt a lot, have realise that should have CLS lecturer to teach us RWP instead. Cause lots stated our RWP skills are not up to mark. Shouldnt be that bad ba!! Otherwise, how the RWP's grade came about.

Reach home, workers grilling outside my house, super dirty and noisy.. Not sure why they put that 'metallic house roof' that is not practical at all. And TBC tmr, pity my mum, enduring thse pollution. Asking her to go out tmr to avoid thse dust. A packed and dirty corridor for me :(

Serius, My English CMI, cant really write in a formal manner, maybe had not really write this formal. Not really good at expressing myself, wanna write something but cant express my thoughts effectively.

Be back to school on Sat to check my prac results. Hope the lab is open til teh end, can do work in the lab mah.. haha=) With multiple power-points, air-con haha, GREAT!!

Got to brushed up, a packed 2 months b4 graduation. ALL the best!!

Anyway, Happy New Year!! =)

A new Beginning

2010-01-01T15:13:00.003+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2010

Time passed very fast, watching the events of 2009 yesterday.The Death of MJ, Peace Nobel prize, Climate Campaign etc. Realize lots of stuffs affecting the world now, esp. Economy.

Stated not going out yesterday, ended up i did. Went out to eat dinner at EXPO then went paya lebar, walked around till 8 plus haha=)

Spent my new year at home, wait for the fireworks. Can see from my house, cool right~!! So no need to buy tickets to see fireworks anymore. Erm, too far, so cant take video of it. Its a 8-min fireworks, nice really nice!!

Watching pple tearing down the X'mas decor and placing the Chinese New Year decor, was like fast sia. Another ANG BAO season.. haha=) But busy with exams, and wont revise de lor, play jiu you lor. How to study during NEW YEAR? This and that Uncle and Auntie come? And always sad during NEW YEAR, cause m the shortest among my cousins.. haha=)

Had finally break the words out of my mouth and told my dad ystd. NEW YR resolution, haha=) At least a load off my mind, applying for it soon. Hope i can find a job.. excel in them.

Lost touch with my friends, and not sure when can we meet? Dont seem to get a good timing haha=) Will lose touch with my CCA pple too, anyway, we dont have much to chat about now. Sound pretty ironic right? haha=)

Nevermind, haha=)

A busy start coming, my final 2 months b4 i graduate. Packed with FYP report and presentation. Wanna fare well for this, cause lots of time spent for this. Sem exams, ICA papers, Presentation. Last time to score le.. A GPA 3.5? hope so ba..

Anyway, HAPPY NEW YEAR!! =)

HAppy NEw YEar

2009-12-30T11:17:00.009+08:00

B4 i 4get, its new year 2010 after 2 days.

VEry frustrated recently bcoz of last min me, i got changes to make for my work, its dont seem to end. But didnt really spend my time doing work only. Its working on fine. Meeting friends for meals, change from SAKAE to Aston near my house. COOL right! anyway, i'm broke in dec 2009. haha

Cant help my friends doing anything, so pretty sad. Sorry guys. A busy Jan and Feb coming pple. Jia you ba!! Still thinking how to break my news to dad that i'm taking Ad. diploma. Then hope to get in to Massey Uni in SP, honours degree. So, i'm like studying in SP for 4 more yrs. Laughing at my sis, that she had to find her way to NTU, while i dont. LOL

Watching the Seventh day, another time. Like the part that God created adam first then eve, no place for a third person. There;s one better one, but forget the phrase le. stated before. Nevermind

Thinking how to spend my new year eve, U. Simon booked hotel to see fireworks, doesnt mean i have to go right!! He's rich, i'm not haha=) I dont really drink, which some think i can. I can tahan some la, not all lor. I try them, and i dont think they taste good. Juz take a sip, A. Vivien will ask me to share red wine with her during X'mas dinner. I was like nah. But better to be embarassed in the house than in the public la. I agreed. Rmb the first time i tried beer, eee not nice, it's 'carbonated' LOL. No need drink till Face red de, i dont know why pple wanna get dead drunk for? haha=)

Watch Chipmunks 2 le, nice.. Funny!!

Right Round (chipmunk version)

Enjoy =)

EDITED:

Watched the 3 Dishes+ 1 Soup 2, a competition between Nonya & Taiwanese dishes. Love the part when the host stated, Singapore is small but Taiwan seem to be smaller as they have not tried Nonya dishes before. This sounds really pleased as to prov that Singapore has really been recognised... haha=)

Poem of Seventh day:

<没有他的日子>
黑夜的每个角落，
都充斥着他的身影，
弥漫着他的气味，
残留着他的笑声，
她与他的感觉渐渐失去，
虽然失去了，至少曾经拥有，
和他一起笑着走过的一段路.

[p.s.: nice right]

Anyone watching SHerlock Holmes?

Merry Christmas

2009-12-27T14:55:00.007+08:00

Late Christmas Wishes,

MERRY CHRISTMAS

Everyone's busy during X'mas i believe.. But i dont think i am very busy..

Went back to school to rush the OC ppt on X'mas eve.. Me no life haiz =( But wait went to the mint museum after that haha=) Went to hong-guan at Bugis eat some chinese noodles.. -> 秀才面.. Not bad haha =) Will try the 状元面 next time..Its fun cause you can choose to add the ingredients yourself or asked for service... Rather cheap, less than 10 bucks haha =)

before adding...

After adding..

Cool right!! After that went Mint museum, took lots of pics, some pics below.. More on the link. Pictures speak a thousand words. Believe it or not.. Sorry ah, cant use flash, so ya... rather dark. Can pay using student price everyday so 7.50 only... Cheap right haha =p

Popeye & Oliver!!

Batman!!

As its says: Tiny heads haha=)

BLUR? Cars...

BEARS =P

Didnt realise the tea we bought gt alcohol till lilian told me haha=) Didnt get drunk, cause very mild only haha=)... Then after that went AMK for the dinenr.. No pics psps.

Then X'mas, watch X'mas show, and movie, suppose to go out didnt go wanna finish work.. SO rushing now..

BUT.. Went out on Boxing day!! Metro Sales @ EXPO!! Bought clothes haha=) Saw my sec school cher, long time didnt see her liao.. Looking at each other at first to think, er.. she look familiar.. ME slow la, so ya haha=) Will keep up with her soon, i hope.. =p

Few more assignments to go!! Meeting friends too yay!!

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2010

A busy holiday week?

2009-12-22T23:09:00.003+08:00

Had attended the cca X'mas gathering last thurs. Not bad, chatted a lot, quite fun. But shld have it at a lecture theatre or media room.. So no need to eat in the clubhse mah haha=) Shld have more chatting some day. Shld have more some time

Friday, off day or school day.. ya my off-day. HDB doing life-upgrading, next time lift juz right outside my house, nt even sure its good or bad. But now, my house super packed and squeezy la, packed with pots of plants. AND super dark, i need the sun light haha=)

Removed my stitches on sat. Still need 3 more weeks to heal the wound. Attended my cousin's birthday.. Kelly's getting married, in JAN 2010. Wedding bells ringing.. haha ROM. Didnt attend ROM b4, wonder how's its like. Cant PON otherwise will die ba haha=)

Went shopping with my empress dowager on sunday.. carrefour. Buying X'mas gift for my 2 cousins. Cool!! But i'm nt going, we dont really celebrate X'mas la haha=) Took Taxi here and there. Before that, went temple settle winter solstice （冬至）, then went bring empress dowager out. Quite fun, play ard, joke ard... haha=)

Monday, went sakae high tea buffet with luan. Seldom eat sushi, coz my family and some friends dont really like sushi. Chatted abt the old times, now she's in NTU. Told her and some i'm working, some and she quite shocked haha=) Realize TP so diff from SP haha=) wanna eat more buffet..

Today, winter solstice （冬至), tang yuan day.. Should have buy some to eat. Love them. Looking aft grace, doing work lor. what else haha=) wanna complete them =)

Busy week coming up:

Dinner on X'mas eve
Going out on X'mas- or rest day =)
Going out on boxing day
Going out on 27th i think, hope not- rest day haha=)
Eye check on 28th
Outing on 29th
Outing on 30th i think, if not wash tank with aqua pple

Lots of assignment not done:

More FYP stuffs- reports and sequencing and ppt
Bioinfo assignment- still researching
OC presentation- can complete by tmr ba
AND MORE...

P.S. Me busy right haha =)

A Happening week

2009-12-13T16:12:00.005+08:00

As i stated in my title if u can really see it. Its a happening week. My MST and my wisdom tooth surgery.

Had a bad feeling after my paper on mon, coz i 4get the answers, too nervous le ba. And that's the reason i dislike mondays. Monday BLUE!! Papers went fine for the rest of the days, tues and wed. Thurs was the paper i feared most, my face gave a 360˚C change after the papers. Woosh!!.. haha =) Eyes very pain to study for Friday's. But the paper not very easy lor. No need to memorize plants names le but sill HARD lor lol

Thrn after went PTN, coz XY not going le, so intended to change place. Cause like Pastamania dont worth the price mah. So made lots of choices, seoul garden, sakura, Fish market... etc. Ended up went Breeks at Taka LOL =) Took lots of photos but with royston, shiryln and athina. Waiting for it...

Took some pics, rest left group by group. Went somerset 313 with Sushi. Firstly intended to watch New Moon, i changed my mind. Sorry =( Intend to eat Ice cream, went to eat Gelare at Orchard central, she choose rum and raisin, and she dont eat raisins, -.- SO i ate them.. Bought pistachio for myself, she bought blueberry and low cheesecake flavour. Stay there, so dont wanna move anymore. See teh rock-climbing wall, was like hmm, HIGH!! haha=)

Pics at Orchard:

Taka de

Orchard central de

Real or fake? Fake de haha=)
Guess the cost? $158 (highlight for answer)

Saturday: Wisdom tooth surgery
Had it on the 12 December, 12 noon. Good timing right!! haha=) Not very scary, juz after that pain lor haha=). Put anesthesia on the tongue and gum, numb la, but still can sense whats he's doing. TO prevent my self from being scared, one way is to sleep. And indeed i did. Brought the tooth home, cleaned, and drying it. No spicy, hot and seafood. Now with swollen cheek =( look like a chipmunk now.

My wisdom tooth, its big haha=)

Got lots of things to do. Hope i can find ample time to do so. =)

Happy Holidays =)

2009-12-05T22:18:00.008+08:00

A windy NIGHTIE NIGHT:

Still chionging to finish the module tested on monday, rest almost done le ba.. Bad planning. haiz. M stressed but got to face it anyway... FACE IT LISA!!

I'm quite a loner, not saying i dont have friends. I do have friends, juz a person who wanna more personal time for myself, more space for myself. Still not ready to face too many ppl. Aint ready talk aloud... If u have realised, i'm stammering in my speech. So, bear with me haha =)

Not sure if the saying is true, 'the other side of the grass is always greener'. Coz when i see my friends from other courses looking more organised and stuffs, started to feel envious. seeing the other fYP groups completed their FYP le, also feel envious. Coz mine at the last part failed ystd. so, most probably doing it after MST. Wanna to end it, really very tired abt it.

No point keep telling myself, hey! u chose the wrong course. Coz i like the course. Its fun, i like the syllabus. Not a case like not my cup of tea. Just still this old me still have exam fever ba, still nervous ba. NO courage to face it. Must have use those courage during tat sec school yr, that i am tired of it. After that trauma, still cant get over it.

Felt very lost, not becoz of the papers, juz dont know what i wanna do after i graduate. Going to Uni is not initial choice in the first place, coz really wanna work, take a real understanding to see how useful my poly days are then study. Also really want a break. A part time study, i supposed. Really wanna use my own bare hands to earn my own money to study UNI. Not really worry that my dad cant afford, but juz really wanna use my own hands to get what i want. Maybe from that way, i really know how to appreciate and make choices ba. But with the economic crisis coming up, erm...

I always regret after i make a choice, cause always see party B as the fortunate one but may not be true i supposed. People have hard times juz they dont show it out. It always everyone's thinking that God is making a hard time for you but not really so. Juz challenges, i believe so. I lack my 2 utmost stuffs i had last time- courage and discipline. Becoz a drop in confidence, these 2 utmost stuffs in me starts to deteriorate. Wanna gain it back. Its not late so..

Gotta take a first step to start my later days.

Pity the guys too, gotta make choices too, so both sexes not very fortunate ba haha=) Only lucky thing abt guys are that they are 'employed' right after they graduate, but ladies, we still need to find them. So ya.. =)AND, those pple with good GPAs will confirm go UNI mah? Still got to compete with other polys and A-level students including IP de lor, so they are also in cold shoes lor. And with limited placements, can get in mah? Most probably overseas ba. So ya.. agn =)

CONCLUSION:: All are in difficult positions. So no complains (p.s. gotta remind myself)

Got to carry on.. Wish me luck!! =)

2009-11-30T22:16:00.002+08:00

NIGHTIE NIGHT:

A thing to do this morning is to book an appointment for my wisdom tooth surgery. Cheer for me first! I choose a very good day and timing. A Saturday, 12 December, 12 pm. So is 12-12-2009, 1200. Cool right!! haha=)

Dont know can go camp mah! If i cant shout and be crazy, no point going haha=)

Super high today, cause school end early this week. Lots of lesson canceled. BUT, still cant go home early =( Got to do FYP lor. Did the standard curve part today, was placing bet to see which concentration will show first. But results un-revealed yet haha=) See how bored i am..

Besides MST still got FYP. Most have us chiong now lor. So last minute, haha =)

U. Simon was like telling me that the seaweed shaker fries dont taste good, cause for the reason he dont like seaweed. But i saw lots buying... Heard not tat bad la. So wanna eat MAC lor. So want to eat lots of food before removing my wisdom tooth. Cause will be a porridge meal for 5 days =(

CHIONG for MST !! All the best everyone!

2009-11-28T21:54:00.002+08:00

NIGHTIE NIGHT:

No stars today =( Love to look at stars but look like satellites lei, oops see wrongly -.-. Love to study astrology, but no place to get 1 telescope. Me no money. Lots of things i wanna learn.. haha=) Easy for me to say.

Went out this weekend. Went Swensens at TM yesterday. Tried new flavour ice cream- chendol and rocky road. Not bad, quite nice. Best is MANGO!! Our favourite. haha=)Now, gt Asian special! Should have tried the sweet and sour fish baked rice lor. Try again next time. Maybe taste good. Lots of sales, super packed, but nth to buy. So, went home slp.

Whenever, i in a bad mood will always craves for ice cream. Others crave for chocolates ah, chips ah etc. So, guys know what to do lei right. Suppose to meet Luan and OKY this coming week, but like no news yet. ME not free lei.. So hard to meet them.

Went school today, board train today saw ML, so 'lucky'lor. Chin chow must have been in school with Jack... They went back ystd le, still coming back today. I'm not only the KS one ok. Saw BT, MT, chin chow, JC, WJ, PS and YL. Guess who r they ba haha, all CLS de haha=)

So after that, went shopping!. Like what my sis says' so like a bird stuck in a cage for 10 yrs', so dun want go home. SITEX at EXPO mah, so train to pasir ris will be super packed de lor. Imagine all leave at Tanah merah. Like what my dad say, first time train to Changi Airport packed. YA, Me alarmed too haha=)

Went TB plaza, Marina Square, Suntec City.. Took lots of Christmas tree. So me again haha. Love X'mas, dont really celebrate but love the season. Like the lightings, and maybe holidays ba, so went shopped around orchard lor. Take lots of photos during this time.. A rain-non-stop timing, so love it too. haha=)

Take ice cream again today! Will organise one ice-cream outing, like real haha =) See first ba. Wanna go orchard, walk walk.

Will take more trees haha=)

Shall we walk this path tgt?

2009-11-25T17:23:00.004+08:00

Late for school today, haha=) So dont want to wake up la. Didnt take painkiller ystd. Pain till cant sleep, so do work till cant tahan then sleep. Come to think of it, my work never seem to end. We r so in the rush for FYP.. Supposed to finish by the end of this month. Dont seem to work cause havent finish, its end of the month next monday. All rushing...

Went to see the dentist.. Infected Gum, got to undergo surgery to remove my wisdom tooth. after that mc 5 days. Now got to reduce swelling, eat antibiotics, rinse my gum with some medicine. Not sure what..

Thinking to do that during the holidays, now pain ba, after clearing the infected parts of the gum. Cant talk much now. Voice very soft lor. But talk a lot ystd at the clubhouse haha=)

Got to eat cold food, no hot spicy food. Just ate chilli today. Not sure how haha=)

Wanna say sorry to my OC group, coz my stuffs still disorganised. But at least we had some parts of the work done. Cher like it thou. Which is kinda good. Take some 2 credits like 4 credits, so me haha=)

Got to study for MST le.. Printing my schedule out soon. Its in a excel file..-.-
MST Timetable:

Hope all start well, ends well =)

Heard this song before, very nice : Note to God by Charice
cant publish video, do see link and lyrics.

Enjoy

2009-11-24T07:46:00.003+08:00

RISE and SHINE

Started my day with a bad thing.. Swollen cheek. So find it hard to talk since Sunday night. Wonder what happen? Not so obvious, like i told my mum- with my round cheek, so not obvious. Not sure its my bad mouth or what? Its getting worse ystd morning, no choice went to see the doc. Coz it hurts that caused me to have migraine headache.

Went to see the doc, not the dentist, whom pple say i shld go to. But lazy to queue and dislike dentists, so ya.. haha =)Not mumps (lymph nodes not swollen), Not prostates, so confirm gum swollen le. Not sure its because the doc know i study science, so use science terms haha=)

Then try my best to endure the pain then go school. Reach school at 11am, pain sia. Take pain killer le, still pain so take panadol. the pain killer she gives is 50mg, i took the 250mg de. Feel so much better, but in a tired mode.

Did the embryo expt ystd, pple asked how it is, seemed to forget le. Maybe due to my gum. Got to thank Steph and YF too, cause they are doing the disection. I am actually walking around. But can still take it la. Whats sad is, we juz want the body, so chopped off the head, wings and legs. Didnt take photos, too cruel le.

then went home, was called back to do FYP. Steph mad as i didnt tell her i am sick, then she will not call me back. But for me, it doesnt really matter mah. At least i know whats going on.

Was in a daze when i reach home ytd, due to the high dosage of painkillers. so Went to bed very early ystd- 10pm. Which is consider early for me la. Normally at around 11 plus 12. Lay flat on the bed. haha=)

Mum asked me to book an appointment with the dentist today for thursday. Cause i end early, no lesson this thurs after 1pm. So, go to see dentist, better to endure the pain during MST right!

2009-11-21T11:22:00.002+08:00

RISE and SHINE Saturday:

A windy pleasant day, no rain.. YAY!!
No more wet days..

Dad coming back from KL today. Wonder if he bought anything. Haha=) Not sure if he has the time for it. Heard he lives in the hostel at that place. Hope the place is clean, not very dusty ba haha=)

HAHA.. My sis will say something agn- 'Jie, u change your blogskin again?' YA! I DID!! =) Finally find a simple one that i want, no need too many designs. Juz a very grid-table kind is ok for me. Most importantly, with music!! =)

Am i a geek or freak? Both equally weird. Not sure if i am sensitive or what? I'm felt like i m treated like one. Maybe through their facial expression, i felt so. Not the ones that face sermons much or something.. So, not used to it. TOO THIN-SKINNED le ba. Got to change...

What's funny about yesterday, XY and sushi dont know that i can cook. HAHA=) But like what i told them, they may not like the stuffs i cook. Much more to my liking only. All the fishes, vergetables combo!!

Cramped with OC speech (which i hate most, prefer impromptu), and more Datasheets. Reading up on my FYP, shouldnt keep asking questions, that sounds so dependent. Should discover myself.

Wanna watch Gokusen.. But Kat-tun dont seem to be acting... Not sure lei. Got to check the cast list.

Sleeping is my remedy now.

2009-11-19T20:58:00.008+08:00

Had a remarkable Wednesday. A Busy and rush day

Morning with OC, telling us the importance of speech and tone today. Ms. Chng showed us a video during the lesson. Talk about keeping SP clean as topic for practicing Q&A. Came up with lots of lame ideas- like cutting off GPA, cameras, Ask EEE to build robots etc. Never ends. Michael Rosen Rap, super nice. Look at the video below:

Michael Rosen's Rap

Then at Plant biotech, AKoh called everyone's attendance from their chinese name. So, my chinese name was called instead. LOL Everyone was so shocked, cause her Chinese not tat good haha=) EEE and MM will not feel the fun from it. Never imagine our lecturer would spend 1/4 of lesson taking attendance, lecturer late for 1/2 hr and lecturer asked to pick rubbish for 1/2 hr too. That's why we gotta rush syllabus every time.

Then after that, rush to the career FAIR. Didnt manage go to the talks, got FYP -.-. Took lots of free gifts haha=) Thinking what to do after that. A very serious thought.. should i go NIE instead? Dont know.

THEN after that, rushed to meet my sis watch movie. Watch at TB Plaza.

Who will survive? OR who should survive? or maybe How to survive?
A very nice one... Lots of thoughts after that. Here goes: (p.s. a long one haha)

Learn a lot from it... Nobody will know what will happen next.. U may be safe now but you will die a second or minute later. Parents are very noble- they will do everything to save their children. Children too, filial piety, will try all best to save the elders.

Someone made a blog out of it. From the official site whowillsurvive.com A small part of it in the movie very nice in it- this is the end. Pls watch the animation. Seen this in the movie. Its Very nice!!

But people are selfish (when problem faced), thinking to save mankind or having some mankind left after the end of the world. Do so by saving all the rich and royalty and government, saying 'genes'.Bribe them too to keep themselves alive and their kids too. Spend lots of billions for a life. Stated a reason to keep income to build ships for survivors and later after the disaster.

But what's heartwarming is everyone will still go help each another. There is still a communicable language without speech but just thoughts would be able to understand each other.. No matter what's their race, religon, blood or country. They are still able to understand how each other feels.

Realise a great book- Farewell Atlantis, seen in the movie. Is there such a book? Dont know.. At the end of the movie, a great quote regarding humanity... But forget about it, will try to remember it sooner or later.

Its ended with Mt. Everest as not the highest mountain but the one at Africa. The other countries are like gone- Hawaii, California etc. But just Africa still remain intact. And its the Cape of good town still remains. Hear stories from people that the Cape of good town is the place that started humanity on Mother Earth.

Is it true?